The weather today was exceptionally scorching, don't know why either. Only it was after I boarded the bus to town that I felt how important air con was to me! I spent close to 3hrs in Far East and just being there alone, I spent close to 100. I wasn't really in the best of my mood so I majorly needed a retail therapy. So I was practically buying things the moment they caught my eyes, I think it was less than 10seconds! I think if I were to own a credit card, it'll burst in just one day.

Finally, eveyrything ended peacefully.

While I was at Taka, I was having cold sweat, my hands and body were trembling so badly. Then I started to feel nauseous. Before I know, I nearly vomit. Hurrily went to the restroom and I had a really bad time letting everything out. It is terribly disgusting. Feeling all weak, I make my way slowly to the bus-stop, hoping I'd be better by then to board the bus home. The moment I reach the taxi stand, I had to sit down straight. Cause I had a semi black-out. My head was spinning so badly and it was all dark. Goodness, I was feeling super weak to even get onto a cab. So I practically sat there for 1/2hr before I called up Fel(knowing that she hasn't left town) and she rushed over to pick me up. Boarded a cab home. Got to thank her a million for sending me home, if not I think I'll be in the hospital(touch wood). But it was really very scary. My gastric juices all came out because I didnt had anything else other than breakfast in the morning. At one moment, I really thought I was going to die(touch wood). Phew.


Now im home, going to take a early rest tonight. I scare I might feel giddy tmr again, sucks man):

I didn't know today would end with a bad night. If I had known, maybe I would choose not to know anything at all.

Felt so lost suddenly. My heart pounded quicker than normal, I really felt helpless and lost. Wanted to hold back those tears but I think my eyes was about to burst anytime. Worse of all, it was the pain I felt inside that I broke down so terribly. Aft 1.5yrs of not experiencing the pain, I start to feel it again. I feel like i'm so vulnerable, my mind just run so wild. Can't control it at all. My eyes are tired from crying but my mind and body refused to rest. I decided to not sleep, don't wanna close my eyes and start thinking again. Thats the things bout love. It can totally make a person's mind and body so vulnerable. And for now, I just can't accept the damn fact. I made a wrong decision.

What happened led me to think that I had been too tired for the past 2yrs and now its time I should take a good and long rest.

I hope my phone never rings anymore.

Okay, I got so sick of my hair so I went for a longggg change. Lovin' it very much now! :>

Dear diary, I'm so into scrapbooking nowadays. So yesterday marks the day whereby the scrapbook buddies(Zombie and me) make a pact. I'm seriously going to have this as my hobby. It got me thinking that I could probably teach small kids on arts and craft/scrapbooking next time round ;> We spent quite some time in Toast Box doing up the gift for monster twiny. Zombie had to leave around 6 to meet up with SY, so I went to CO and Rubi to shop visit my lovelies who are working. Left town at 7-ish with the thinking that the bus wouldn't be that packed, BUT I WAS SO WRONG! Anyway met up with monster twinny over at his place cause he needed my help in getting his room packed. Had so much fun around packing the room. He really has ALOT of rubbish lying in corners of his cupboard. And apparently, popo(monster twiny's granny) loves soft toys. So he ended up giving her all the soft toy he has in his cupboard. Now her bed looks so adorable with all the stuffed toys. haha!


As for today(wednesday), i'm so glad its finally midweek! Had school in the morning, as usual Mr Balwant made the lesson interesting. Then driving for the next 1hr40mins before I hit home to place my books and hit town aft that. Went down MWL to sign up for "Just-getting-started" and I wanted to head to Spotlight but before I know, I see it closed down for renovation. Didn't managed to have any luck in finding heart-shaped boxes. Kaplan to meet up with Fel and Angel. Apparently, my plan was all FUCKED UP. Angel was very sweet to acc me ard Ion for some retail therapy since my mood was way down the drain. I only managed to bought a top from F21 but it actually made me feel a little better, im so glad :)


I wanted to head for a run just now, but started feeling giddy so decided not to. But im still very determined in meeting my goal of 42:)

This weekend flew by with a wink. 3days is definitely not enough for all the partying. I wish there were more weekends where I could do that often, but its super tiring to both the mind and body. My complexion gave rejection as to me having less than 7hrs of sleep for these 3days. And I'm really hating alcohol much more now, but I love beers. Not many girls love it but I do! :>

I already set myself to start revision for Accts and Psoc this week in sch aft lessons with tiffy. Planning to just get the Psoc text(which weighs a ton) and really mug. I've not much time because I always tend to tell myself there's still months before the major exams. But then the next thing I know, im sitting right outside the hall, holding onto notes and feeling all tight up for the exams. I don wanna make it a mess now that im in uni. So i'll strive for the best.

Finally its monday, im having lesser things on hand to do. Just helping out at home, tutoring my brother and then supper with Cottons at night. It'll sum up my Monday I guess. I need more sleep, more sleeepppppp.

I dont know why too. I was early in meeting Candy today over at MWL. So it was a cold day, I decided to hit SB for a caramel latte before I hit MWL. LOW FAT MAYO potato salad tempted me, that was my dinner. After I got done with my early "salad-dinner", I was sipping my caramel latte, enjoying the warmth of the drink. Suddenly it dawned on me that I no longer felt weird in being alone now. All along I couldn't get used to it totally. But now, people give stares but it feels nothing to me. I continue enjoying my drink. Many things went through my mind, I was really thinking in a calm mind. Thats the pretty good thing bout being alone sometimes. We all just need a little of ourselves, dont we?

And I overate, it sucks.

Dear diary, I had a pretty busy long day. Had my driving lessons and I just couldn't get a perfect parking :< It totally sucks. I wish I never need to learn how to park a car. But oh well, if I don't then whats the point of driving? Hahaha, thats the problem with me, sometimes I find myself contricdicting. Oh wells, the weather could have killed me. Hot and Cold, just like the song by Pink. I gave my fullest attention to Psco today, im glad something got into my head ;D The bus ride to town was BAD. It was just noisy, bumpy and cold. I nearly literally died in the bus. Town was still not so bad. I'm hating crowds even more, whats more I work in a place that I've to deal with the crowd. Managed to settle the things first with V :) We really went into the shop, look ard, decide and tada its in my hands! I bought a 10bucks cap, intending to use it in KL. Yes KL! My bestest twiny got the infor wrong. HAHAHA. im gg KL instead of Genting. Oh wells, its still a trip that I wanna enjoy myself too. No shopping but more of relaxation. Hitting the sheets in half an hr's time!


Nights to the other half of the earth!

Finally getting a getaway in October! Twin and I are going away on a trip to Genting from th 15th to 17th with Noel & Co. It'll be my first damn time with this bitch. Hahaha. I really can't wait for it to happen! But well, I'll still not go for the more extreme theme park rides there. I think I'll faint even when I see it. Hahaha, so TWIN YOU BETTER DON DRAG ME TO PLAY THE ROLLAR COASTER OR WHATEVER SHIT OKAYZXZXZ ;] I wait for you below, giving you my best moral support! :>

Anyhoo, sch wasn't at its best. Being late for class started my day off and bumping into asshole during my break. How small can the world be?! I've been spending money on scrap book materials which made me feel so sinful! Cause I always ended up getting things I don't really need. It's because they look too adorable and I can't resist the temptation lah! But good thing is, I managed to settle the theme and colours for the gift, all thanks to tiffy ;> I left to FEP alone in search of new jeans in the early noon. Well, no new finds but bought this "I'M-SUPER-IN-LOVE-WITH" floral dress. Planning to wear it out on Saturday night. I cannot wait at all!! Photos'll be up ;)


Trip the the doc's was PAINFUL!! Dr Goh had to put this damn long thin camera right into my nostril and down my throat. Fucking disgusting experience as you can really feel it! But I can see how badly swollen it is, plus I SAW MY THROAT! :DD and now I know why my voice is so coarse!! Heh. Im prescibed med with a spray. Bad thing is, I'm refrained from ALOT of food for 3weeks): Good thing is, a easier way of slimming down. Hah.

Finally got the photos developed and I started on it. Hopefully things goes pretty smooth ;) Anyw, got to run along for bed soon!

Yesterday was awesome! My initial plan of retail therapy was half fulfilled. Bought a couple of steals from FEP before I spent a bomb over at Laines at Wheelock. It's like once I go there, I always spent close to an hr there and everytime I go, the bill never fail to be more than 50bucks. I'm planning to sign up for scrap book making classes at MWL! Can't wait at all! So it seems like I did had my retail therapy but my plan of heading home around evening was crashed since my lovely girlfriends(Candy and Sandy) came down to find me! They wanna give G sis a surprise at her workplace. G sis came down to FEP to join us after she ended her work. We wanted to head to ECP to bowl but its pretty far so we changed over to Orchid Country Club at Yishun! Damn fun to be bowling with them! I nearly fell down while cheering cause I striked! But the person was f.up. After bowling was billard before we finally ended the day. Thanks to Wenhui for sending us all back. Dropped dead on my bed after I had a quick shower.


Today, I had sucha hard time waking up for driving lessons. The weather was very good for sleeping in! Finally completed stage 3 of driving and am now left with revision lessons before TP in Oct. Aww, can't wait to get my license but pretty nervous for my TP! Hope everything turns out well :)


Sept marks my 1year in Cotton On. Gosh, I can't believe that I managed to survive in a job for 1yr! I think I might even be working for another yr or so until my uni ends. Uni is getting much more stressful nowadays. Im trying to handle all my modules. I guess I just need more self discipline. Work hard Rach!


There's classes tmr and its freaking 830am! And my appt is at 3pm. So am gonna make use of the time to shop for a new pair of jeans:)


BYE WORLD!


Oh before I forget, Xinya, what happened to yr eyes? I saw the freaking photo in FB!