25th feb (:

went for monster's bbq at his condo. met up with mummy and darling at ard 6 plus close to 7 . i rang darling up before i left my hse and she was so damn retarded

darling: where are u?
me:home la, wad time u gg out?
darling: don't know leh
me: ITS 6 ALR!!! WE MEETING AT 6! GO NOW!!!
darling: okok =/

she is damn retarded but i love her still. she's always late when we meet and is always so slow la. but i still love her. anyw after that roy came down and fetch us and we fetched darling after that . got to know 2 new friend, joseph & rico. i tell you, rico is damn bloody funny and he's forver eating one lor! he sits beside me and tempt me to eat. and whenever there's food he straight away take! omg la, cant stand him cause he's damn funny. joseph is nice (: cos he uses th board and fans for us (: terry and sadness came too . terry is damn quiet and normal la unlike his usual crazy acts . aft eating we headed back to his hse while th rest stayed on below.

oh ya, i was chased by baby again! like duh, so many countless times and i din even provoke him. omg *faints*


they played mahjong while we sang. had so much fun and i left with mummy. cabbed home cos my mom was rushing me. got home and showered and rest cause many things happen *details missing* i got really depressed that i sneak outta hse. unlike me right? i went to monster's hse and we had a good talk. he's always there for me when i needed him. i really lovee him. thanks monster. he gave me beer and i got drunk. but managed to get my ass home without my mom knowing. i showered and drop dead th moment i saw my bed. woke up a 4 and slack till now. hunting for jobs soon with chang (: need a new life. but im not sure when :(


`i've fell very deeply inside this hole. i don't know when i will pick myself up again. maybe it takes a very long period of time. i will learn to try to pick myself up again and be like th old me. right now, its impossible. im really feeling terrible inside. crying every other night. it hurts so much that makes me feel that i don't want anything anymore. i don't know when i will get well. just hope it will be soon. i don't know :x

thanks eunice, noel, monster, mummy, darling,qianyu, juli (: thanks for all. i will try.


TIME FOR THE PHOTOS TO DO THE TALKING (:

23rd feb (:
met up with mummy and we headed to darling monster hse (: Roy and monster came down to fetch us. and they were half awake -.- wearing their forever-so-nice coca cola shorts and shirt. evern their hair was not combed! initially they wanted to smoke but no lighter so they headed back . after they washed up and stuff , we started to play MAHJONG ! ah-ha its beeen so long since i've played mahjong la . all of them won except me . i lost like shit . =( after a few rounds , monster suggested to head to town . then they prepared and change and we headed to meet darling first before we headed to town . cabbed down with darling and mummy . oh man it was raining like shit la , we were abit drenched . ROy and monster catch up with us after which .


we slacked at cine cause it was raining and we couldn't head anywhere . so we talked and slacked there while they went to buy clothes and stuff . envy them with so much money la . i also want things frm Revoltage . anyone ? haha . then we waited for terence and imran to come before we headed for dinner . at that point of time , somethings happened . not that we are angry with you but we are just very disapointed . after dinner , we headed to kbox and sing sing sing ! omg and i lost my voice la . due to th over singing of mine . terry and qiqi came back to find us . then monster , qiqi and terry left . before that i had a talk with monster . broke down in front of him .


he told me not to cry cause he was at fault too . we had a tiff earlier on and we were kinda short tempered . angry at each other for small things . i don't know why im like that . maybe its because everything changed . how i wish things will remain like how it will before o levels ): monster told me not to cry and stuff and he gave me a big hug . after which we were better and headed back to th room . before they left , he hugged me again and told me not to cry anymore . thanks (:


alright me, mummy and darling left shortly after which , mummy went home . me and darling went to find monster and the rest . then we slacked outside cine till 1 plus and left for maxwell . they had their supper there and we had a camwhore session there (: aft which terry , qiqi and monster went off first while me and darling sat and talk with imran . he's a great singer ( i swear ) . then we headed back home in a cab .



reached darling hse and we went dead . after washing up we went to bed . so tiring la . we fell asleep immediately and darling woke up every early th next morning . while i slept till 11 plus stll very tired luh ! then headed for mac big breakfast and after which polyclinic and i left . i was super duper tired and it was drizzling . came home safety (:


*to our beloved monster(:
maybe you won't get to read my blog . but just wanna tell you alot of things here . alot of things changed after o levels . we nvr really contact as much as before o levels . mayb it was due to the reason because you are attached . but to us , we nvr look down upon you and even welcome you th idea of being attached . at least there is someone who can take gd care of you . but then maybe we met up so much less often and ytd's misunderstandings happened . im not saying we are angry but we are just disappointed in you somehow . actually we all hope to go back into th friendship that we all once shared ? that was so close and everyone was happy ?we all hope . but somethings once its changed , maybe it won't be back . not saying that anyone had changed but maybe our friendship changed for certain reasons . we just hope you know that we still love you as our monster . 8 yrs of friendship is hard to maintain and come by. may th obstacles be there but we'll be there to even clear it . no matter wad has changed , we will always love you as a whole . our friendship will never change my dear (:



alright feeling emo now :(

23rd feb (:
met up with mummy and we headed to darling monster hse (: Roy and monster came down to fetch us. and they were half awake -.- wearing their forever-so-nice coca cola shorts and shirt. evern their hair was not combed! initially they wanted to smoke but no lighter so they headed back . after they washed up and stuff , we started to play MAHJONG ! ah-ha its beeen so long since i've played mahjong la . all of them won except me . i lost like shit . =( after a few rounds , monster suggested to head to town . then they prepared and change and we headed to meet darling first before we headed to town . cabbed down with darling and mummy . oh man it was raining like shit la , we were abit drenched . ROy and monster catch up with us after which .


we slacked at cine cause it was raining and we couldn't head anywhere . so we talked and slacked there while they went to buy clothes and stuff . envy them with so much money la . i also want things frm Revoltage . anyone ? haha . then we waited for terence and imran to come before we headed for dinner . at that point of time , somethings happened . not that we are angry with you but we are just very disapointed . after dinner , we headed to kbox and sing sing sing ! omg and i lost my voice la . due to th over singing of mine . terry and qiqi came back to find us . then monster , qiqi and terry left . before that i had a talk with monster . broke down in front of him .


he told me not to cry cause he was at fault too . we had a tiff earlier on and we were kinda short tempered . angry at each other for small things . i don't know why im like that . maybe its because everything changed . how i wish things will remain like how it will before o levels ): monster told me not to cry and stuff and he gave me a big hug . after which we were better and headed back to th room . before they left , he hugged me again and told me not to cry anymore . thanks (:


alright me, mummy and darling left shortly after which , mummy went home . me and darling went to find monster and the rest . then we slacked outside cine till 1 plus and left for maxwell . they had their supper there and we had a camwhore session there (: aft which terry , qiqi and monster went off first while me and darling sat and talk with imran . he's a great singer ( i swear ) . then we headed back home in a cab .



reached darling hse and we went dead . after washing up we went to bed . so tiring la . we fell asleep immediately and darling woke up every early th next morning . while i slept till 11 plus stll very tired luh ! then headed for mac big breakfast and after which polyclinic and i left . i was super duper tired and it was drizzling . came home safety (:


*to our beloved monster(:
maybe you won't get to read my blog . but just wanna tell you alot of things here . alot of things changed after o levels . we nvr really contact as much as before o levels . mayb it was due to the reason because you are attached . but to us , we nvr look down upon you and even welcome you th idea of being attached . at least there is someone who can take gd care of you . but then maybe we met up so much less often and ytd's misunderstandings happened . im not saying we are angry but we are just disappointed in you somehow . actually we all hope to go back into th friendship that we all once shared ? that was so close and everyone was happy ?we all hope . but somethings once its changed , maybe it won't be back . not saying that anyone had changed but maybe our friendship changed for certain reasons . we just hope you know that we still love you as our monster . 8 yrs of friendship is hard to maintain and come by. may th obstacles be there but we'll be there to even clear it . no matter wad has changed , we will always love you as a whole . our friendship will never change my dear (:



alright feeling emo now :(

boooo! i just got home not long ago (:
had a great time with everyone today :DDD


met up with mummy today. aft i had lunch with mom, i headed to meet mummy and we headed to town. we decided to find Noel at his working place first. so we went and saw him eating bread. so pathetic. LOL. then we talk with him and acc him for lunch. aft lunch we continued to slack at his push cart. initially was to meet up with monster but Roy was sick so he hafta take care of him. we ended up waiting for Noel to knock off before we head for late dinner. we left at 8 plus and headed straight to lot 1 for dinner. Roy rang Noel up and we met up with them at lot 1.


after which we had our dinner and me & mummy headed to monster house to find th rest while Noel went home. they were playing mahjong. aft monster ate his dinner, me,him and mummy went down and haf a good talk. its been so long since we all had one nice chat. and of course time passes so fast that we hafta go home. me and mummy headed home while th rest continued on. talked bout lotsa things bout our past. laughing at our silly selves. miss th past sooo much :D


anyw to conclude, a good day spent with everyone that i love (: esp monster and mummy. thanks for everything you guys gave me. that is you (: im sooo glad 8 yrs ago i found friends like u guys and not some others. may god bless all of us. i loveee u both so much. (:


i loveee everyone (:

happy happy new yr to alll (:
i spent a wonderful new yr with my beloved friends (:
love all of them lots!


20th feb
met up with mun and chang and we went woods hse. eunice arrived much earlier than us and she brought mocha(wood's dog) down when she came to fetch us. chang hafta borrow oranges frm woods cos he forgot to bring la. how forgetful can he be?! we slacked and watched tv at his hse. after which hadi arrived and we had our lunch prepared by his mom and maid. really delicious (:


after lunch, we had a few games of mahjong. was really very funny throughout the game. then we slacked and watched tv all th way till kohs came. gary, ivan and joey came at ard 5 plus. then we all start to gamble. initially i won like 6 bucks la. was damn contented and quitted from the game to watch tv. ivan kept on tempting me to play la and i was very very tempted to do so. but i strongly rejected him cause i feel i will lose if i play. so i rejected him all th way till ard 9 plus we started playing again! haha. and my sentiments were right la, i lost 8 bucks! omg, i stopped playing cos im really broke and i need money to cab home. then we slacked awhile before mun and kohs send me down to tke cab (: thanks girls.


21st Feb
went woods hse in th early morning and woke all of them up. we gg for th movie Norbit today. so after long hrs of waiting for them to get ready and wake up, we finally stepped outta hse and head to town. gary left for home. th rest of us went town for movie. reached cine and went to get the tix and aft which we headed to the village for lunch. was really full but th food wasnt that very nice. then we headed for movie. i rate it 6/1o. cause i expected Eddie Murphy's movies to be alot funnier. but Norbit was kinda lame. :x after movie we head for NEOPRINTS! freaking longgg since we all had one. wasn't really used to it cos too long nvr take. but turned out very nice (:


window shopped ard and i saw a number of people today. firstly when i left Heeren, i saw Terry. then followed by Renee who is working at Flesh Imp at heeren la. then aft that i saw juli's friends but i din wave at them. aft that i saw TERENCE!!!! so missed him la. i gave him a big hug. then i also saw JONATHAN! my beloved brother and we pat each other like we doo (: i misss everyone so much right now. meet up people (:

some misunderstandings between me and mummy. sorry :x hope u aint angry anymore. *loves*

then we headed to far east and find shimin as well as eat. had a hard time finding where to eat. finally we settled down for ban mian. after dinner, we went to find shimin at mango lingo and we chatted awhile before we left. monster & terry was in town and was at far east so we met up for awhile. took 1 pic with my cookie monster ! (: misss him so damn much la. then i left with mun they all for home. as usual we talk nonsense and joked all th way till je and i alighted and parted with them. kinda tired but don feel like sleeping. (:

fucking emo now. i hateee the feeling of being sooooo emo when i rather be happy and go crazy. but sometimes maybe emo is really needed :(


all i need is just a break
a shoulder or a place to rest
im tired, enough of wadever that is happening.
fck


sorry i need a getaway

18th jan
in th morning went over to th temple to pray before heading to my ah ma house. i got burnt by the joss stick la. damn it. then we headed to ah ma hse aft praying. sat there awhile before we left for m'sia to granny's place (: was soooo glad that there wasnt any jam at all. so we reached granny's place in like an hr's time. saw my cousins and esp this cute lil one (: he is so damn cute la, cant resist his cuteness. he's only 6 yrs old but he still don't really know how to talk. just kept on mumbling to himself. or talking some alien language we all don't understand. but he's really adorable! :DDD


they played mahjong for th whole day and i watched tv for th whole day till i fell asleep on th sofa. th weather was fucking hot till i fell asleep. then woke up for dinner and also to shower. after dinner, we continued watching tv and till me and huixin fell asleep. it was really very boring la. slept early and i was realli tired the next day. mom woke me up and we hafta leave alr.
reached back home in ard an hr's time. dead tired. going out later (: