reality

sometimes in life, we can't choose certain things. like how we can't choose to be born rich, how we can't choose who to be our parents, what kind of life we will lead, what kind of people we will meet, what may happen in the future and the list goes on. all these things are not within our control at all. we can only try to make it better. like how we can try to improve our lives if we're born poor. definitely sometimes i wish he wasn't my xxx. very obvious to who im refering to. or rather ever since that recent incident, our gap has all widened even more. it's all thanks to him for these that happened and the consequences that follows. he should be responsible for all his actions all these years. year after year, i thought it would be better and he would change for the better. but i was wrong, so wrong. and now after that incident, he is telling everyone the same thing " I'll change for the better." yeah right, how many more times do you need to say and we end up having to stop you from all those night shits? nothing can wake him up other than his own children. but to be true, not even any of my sisters feels like talking to him at all. if he dont ever change that character of his, it will never be possible that they or rather we will sit down and have a talk in peace. he knows it himself. if he wants the worst scenario, he can for all i care, do whatever he wants now. he will just be ending up with nothing left. thats the end of the story for him. he jolly well knows what happened and whether he has a clear conscious. no one is more clear than he, himself. i had enough for all of him and his character. the only good memory i had of him was all before P1 when he doted so much on all of us, having family outings and everything. if one day, things get all shattered, you're the cause of everything.



i feel better after ranting out. right now, im trying my best to get over everyday happily. being happy at work or in school. i don wan people around me to feel upset for me. nothing to be upset about. im still holding on good. being happy beats everything in the world, even money:) and i like all that i loved to be happy as me.


lets all hope everything will be better for everyone soon. it sucks so bad and i believe it hasnt been a good year for us. enough, KBYE!