HAPPY 2008 ! (:


went over to Esplanade to catch the fireworks. the group was HUGE! i mean really huge and we stop by every now and then to keep check. walked over to maxwell for supper and over to Tantric before heading down to Speedy. then to fetch Boyfriend and derrick and back to Speedy again. some left and some stayed on. left at 7plus and cabbed home. the cab driver shocked the hell outta me! from the rear view mirror, i could see he was closing his eyes and drive! i held on so tightly to my phone and my seat in fear of being killed :/ and that was when i realise life could be so precious.

new year resolution: work hard for school, work and driving. learning to be someone even stronger than before and more self discipline.

yesterday's clubbing was a mistake. got myself wasted in the end when im not supposed to. my image was totally gone. also made plenty of people worried about me and people breaking down in front of me, i dont feel good at all. a million thanks to those who took care of me, esp: ben(: and next will be Mr Boyfriend, sorry for making things worse & also carrying me over to maxwell, i guess i weigh a million or even trillion. oh wells, im glad everything's over now.




seriously my temper and attitude's getting worst and it sucks):

yet you appear again and got me so stuck up inside

work today. due to the sales going on, work starts at freaking 93oAM!)': the whole morning i did nothing but day dream and the air con makes me feel so sleepy :/ after that it became fun due to the tampiness thing which got me to think "how lucky can i be?" )): town after work to meet boy for some shopping to chase away my emptyness inside. SNIP SNIP SNIP, there goes my hair, once again its shorter! (: felt better everytime i had my hair cut, i dont know why either ;) mad running to heeren's and at least i got something today which didnt make the shopping wasted (; photos needed badly in my updates cause even me,myself and i find my blog post oh-so-boring without any picchas. party time tmr night again (;





Mr Boyfriend says im fat)):

time passes so fast, year' 07 is coming to an end and arrival of ' 08 will be in 4days time. i won't consider this year to be very good nor very bad, just average? plenty of unpleasant events did happened this year which isn't worth thinking back at all. at the same time, good things came in too. blessed with wonderful friends around me, my never giving up mumsie and family, my colleagues etc etc. it also occur to me that i wasted plenty of time this year round, doing nothing but wasting much more moolahs than i should. the feeling isn't very pleasant when i think back. but it made me to keep pushing myself forward to a better self in the new coming year. school, work and driving will definetely be filling up 3/4 of my time. it's actually somehow good that it gives me the drive to work hard for what i yearn for. my new year resolution will be different this time i guess?



im being random here. time now is 215am and i need to wake up at 7am for work later)): and im still not asleeep!

went over to Nicole's. its really been ages since i saw her. had a nice catch up tgt. dinner over at AMK and then they headed out while i train-ed back home. thoughts ran through and it gives me the urge to just alight at the right stop. and it turned out the train i boarded was terminating at that. i just needed to tap and out im yet i decided i shouldn't be doing these, its time to wake up from my dreams that all along i had been in and not carry any hope further. sometimes i just wish to run away from this hectic world cause it presses me down so much that i dont know who i am inside. time is making me run wild and so what i really need is to fill up the empty-ness. alright there's gonna be work tmr and something to be happy about is that my pay is finally in tomorrow (:

i feel like having bangs and a new hairstyle with a new colour(:

head's spinning badly and i seriously need to get myself up tmr for interview.

childhood moments

rotted myself at home the whole day, didnt even get myself out to lunch simply because i feel so lerthagic to go anywhere. so i ordered Mac instead, i ate it just yesterday): tomorrow's finally the eve of xmas! so gonna go out and party all night since daddy allows me to :D so today im still going to spend the remaining day watching videos on youtube.

i need a runaway!

dinner over at Balestier with family and then dad dropped me off at Novena Sqaure to take the train down to town. hell with it, i had a hard time finding the MRT): waited for an hr or so for tweeny. i got super pek chek with everything not tweeny. & my moodswing just come and swing me so hard. home after tweeny walked me over to the bus-stop and waited with me for th bus. saw boy today too:D




an assurance(:

im super in love with Marieh Carey!

sometimes i just feel like going rounds and rounds

beanie girl (:


PLAY together with the usuals. it was actually a little boring in the beginning when we were at maxwell and it got so much better after beer and all (: & i finally managed to learn 5-10. alright i know im slow): boyfriend was drunk so left first. cabbed home around 3? cab fares are very expensive nowadays): i spent like 20bucks home? im going broke and i need to hibernate at home.

3am in the morning

mahjong at 5am. chilled, dung-ed and laughed plenty. everyone who was there was dead tired. left at 7-ish to have breakfast. the feeling was great cause its been long since i'm up soo early :/ the rest all headed home. playground with tweeny next, talked alot. really alot. home then and i thought through many things on my way home. it's been a night since i slept.

i just stood so stone, looking outta of my room window and holding my drink. the feeling was pleasant yet i dont feel good at all. it seems like a moment where i can stop and breathe slowly and take in the morning scene. the clear blue sky just make me stone their and thoughts just run through. i know i'm tired and i need to rest but i just can't clear my mind.

i got my beanies today!:D dinner with Noel that ass who jus booked out from his camp last night. he went super duper high upon seeing me and tweeny. oh boy, we missed you too(: next was to FEP to get my beanies:D bus-ed over to Speedy and chilled there while the had their game. Delong came and drove me,tweeny,boy & derrick to yishun to pick boyfriend & smelly fingers. then they drop me off under my place and went for supper at BT! i misssssss the prata there so much!!)): i wish i could join them but there was my limit): fear not x'mas is coming and we'll gonna party all out together!:D

i looked so unatural here :/
to end off, here's something nice, anklet love <3

PMS got into me this noon while waiting for things to be confirmed. i jus felt super pissed with everyone so much so that i decided to go around walking alone and to cool myself down. yet many fucked up things still happen which got me even more pissed):
1. buying ToriQ and that the auntie in front of me was taking her bloody own sweet time, really pissed
2. people just kept one blocking my way wherever i walked
3. found myself doing nothing to improve my own situation

i need to really get down to some recruit company and fucking get a job and i need moolahs to spend! i hope to get everything i wan before my birthday which falls on Feb next yr
1. burberry tote bag
2. gucci / burberry belt
3. burberry collar shirt
they really cost over 1k moolahs all together)):


EDITED

i fell in love with binnies now!:D all thanks to Mr Boyfriend who taught me that it was called binnie(: went looking for one today but no much findings thou, want something simple thats all. met twin,roy,terry&boyfriend down at town. dinner at Cine foodcourt and then walked around and find delong who's working at Heeren's. then to DFS to check out the burberry bag that im gonna get it when i have enough moolahs. my lovely boy & twin accompany to wait for my bus to come, i love them plenty! might be heading down later on if i managed to sneak out(:

i want a binnie! :D

bleeding love


typical tuesday with not much happenings. met boyfriend today along with smelly fingers at the so-not-homely Yishun :/ then headed down Cathay for boyfriend's interview which turned out to be nothing. Ps to kill the boredom by gorging in food and also Daiso and Spotlight's entertainment. down to Speedy to meet kelvin, jake, brian, twin & kenneth(: games after games and boy came over, heart to heart talk with him and much laughters again. boy cabbed along with me and he dropped off at Yishun. Job hunt on th go(:

tiring day at work): yet sales was good and thats something to be happy about(: boy,delong,calli & boyfriend was super nice to come over to find me this morning!:D and they got me going on at work without falling asleep with boy's madness going around. roy and twin came over in th evening as well and bought some stuffs(: we left to town after i knocked off and headed to speedy after dinner at LP. outta sudden i felt so tired on the way home and now i dont :/ i guess its time to get my camera out with me again cause my blog's getting boring without photos. & i need a job):

i need a haircut badly): sighs! hate my hair now cause the ends are seriously irritating me off so much so that i wish i could snip them off with a pair of scissors :/ i know that sounds so ... but i just have the urge to cut it away. alvin and the chipmuks is really a nice and cute show! caught it today along with twin,roy,kenneth,brian & boy(: dinner was at Thai Express and it got my gastric feeling so uncomfortable right now): left town and bused home. im working tmr morning and i need my sleeep right now, Goodnights! :D

supper last night with th following; brian,twin,yun2 & boy over at Swensens. it was sure filling and we even had desserts which got us even more bloated): but ice cream makes me a happy girl (: aftermath we sat outside paragon dung, talk nonsense and laugh. enjoyable time spent tgt and much laughters shared. water-bomb over at Tantric cause it was robin's birthday(: then headed back t twin's house f th night. kenneth and brian came over this noon and we played monopoly tgt! so much of childhood memories(: & i just saw my schedule next week, im working 1day only))): i seriously need a new job badly)':

i really hate t feel this way, it just get so emotionally inside and left me so confused. my thoughts jus run so wild inside like there's no tomorrow, th feeling totally sucks. i wish i was in a deep concussion and never wake up t face whatever that's going on. let's get drunk tonight. fuck

December 14, Deardear's birthday! HAPPY 18th ((:
layss love her miyake <3

headache makes me mood goes down down down)):







friday is coming :D

i realise, all along there was no need f such dramas
it jus got everyone tired emotionally
time t lie back and keep ourselves away frm th crowd





popeye chicken, anyone?

shakerfries and loves made my day (:

fiery, anger and shoutings, even frm th 5th i could hear it. my heart kept on beating so fast that very moment and i could hardly breathe properly. fear that it would end up t be shattered. i could feel th pain thru th closed door, inside me i felt empty. a feeling of useless-ness. im feeling so scared inside, i really am.

caught The Tattoist today over at Cine along w twin,roy,kenneth&brian. it turned out t be nt scary at all but just gross :/ sentosa was cancelled due to th wet weather and its been th 2nd time this month since th same old thing happened again, sighs! Mr Sun, pls come out! aft movie, head over t find mumsie and all at Far East f dinner and back home. feels so weird to be home so early but still th tv managed to keep me entertained(:

sudden feel of snaping a photo w my brother, it turned out t be so froggy :/


i swear i need plenty of sleeep, this morning twin destroyed my sweet dream w his phone call!): he asked me over f cooking session, oh wells i went bed t sleep aft i hanged up and he called later on t wake me up again)): i've left w no choice so i went over. poor fellow, got himself injured ytd night, he better not have a next time anymore. dinner tgt along w roy and we left his place at 5 f town. satisfied my craving f Caramel Ice Blend frm Sb! :D lanshop was next and met boyfriend! :DD im sooo tired, sleeep!



i wish i hadnt heard anything, mayb i wouldn't feel so selfish

Ass is enlisting into NS this coming Tuesday, takecare dude :D


so today was dinner w ass, twin, roy, kenneth, brian and benzhu~ over at V'llage. afterwhich headed over t FEP t meet my babes; baby&daph. missed daph plenty and gave her a tight hug when i saw her. unlucky day for me): over t Clark Quaye, Clinic f drinks before we decided t head t Sb, awesome catching up tgt and bus-ed home afterwhich. tiring day and i need my bed so badly): Goodnights everyone!



no more deeper!:D

Elaine was a super sweet ass today, she bought me this Anna Sui Rouge f x'mas! (: totally love her!


Yishun isn't a homely place t me): i don't have th home feel when im there. hahas. but it's sooo much bigger than th tiny whiny Cck and they have many more things t do there. someone pls expand Cck, its getting smaller and smaller :/ traffic jams f an hr today, got me super pissed cause i was super sleepy and there were no seats!): was so late at work but managed t pull through th day. tired me needs sleeep yet timesheet is needed before noon tmr! ): sighs!



takemehigher(:

rainy day today): reminds me of someone. a very bad day indeed, saddist one. my shoulders were f 2 today. but i hope my 2 darlings will be fine soon(:







tired, emotionally & physically

down t Roy's side along w Sadness,twin,Kenneth and Brian before headin' t town. something cropped up in th very middle and met up w baby later on at Cine. Claud2 and alibaba came afterwhich f a puff tgt. many more things cropped up later on and headed down lanshop like 10plus? & things turned out fine :D alibaba came afterwhich, hope she's feelin' fine right now? cabb-ed home w Noel that ass :/ instant noodles f supper again):





im cravin' f so much foood))):

Thanks daddy for this early xmas gift, superrrr love it! :D


monday blues at work): almost got me killed. but wells afterall everything made up f th blues! :D aft work was over t th usual hangout t find my loves loves loves! & i got th above surprise from daddy once again and in return, a kiss f u. hahas! hitched a ride frm Mr Delong and mrt-ed home frm Yishun, a once familiar place. oh wells it's all th past now(: tired yet contented.


i love everyone ard me now :D
& my dearest daddy, thanks f th gift ((:
pilot t be husband !

can't be bothered




headache

i was being a good girl today by staying at home but with a terrible headache):

spent my saturday out t town th usual hang out place. twin was super duper sad that he got nothing f his shopping trip. oh wells, we walked th WHOLE paragon todayy and went burberry t see th bag i eyed f, price became soooo different :/ cine bk t have our dinner and off t th usual hangout. cabbed home due to th terrible headache ):



i hope & pray f my daddy, roy t cheer up and god will bless him(: i love my daddy :D


i aint bothered anymore cause im tired