going on a hiatus, till then(:

going on a hiatus, till then(:

going on a hiatus, till then(:

going on a hiatus, till then(:

going on a hiatus, till then(:

going on a hiatus, till then(:

i'm somehow starting to get the hang of life. whatever you name it, i've been through plenty and im starting to learn how to handle them. like what someone told me, what's meant to happen will happen. so times like these, i'll probably not bother if its beyond my limits. there're so much to go through and enjoy, life is all about working hard for myself and enjoy(: yes, sorrow times do come but who doesnt have it? i'm sure things'll work out someday. at least for this coming days of 2008, i've not been wasting much time but instead i filled it so full to myself tied down(:


someone to thank, my tweeny. you name whatever it is, he's there for me. tolerating at my sucky attitude at times, which im so so so grateful to you. having fun together over at yr place in the past with cooking, baking and whatever we would do. and yes, he was the one through my worst times. all along, whenever i need shoulders or hugs, he's there to offer. plenty of thanks to you. really love you to the maximum!



pieces of it

Ikea today! along with Brian and Roy. Had plenty of fun down there "playing" around with the stuffs. They pushed me inside the trolley and I got stuck in the end :/ that was very paiseh cause everyone was looking at me :/ In the end we got a trolley full of items and headed for payment. Gave the chicken wings a miss today cause we were rushing. Then over to Roy's place before picking tweeny and town. Dined at NYDC, Roy's treat, thanks you!(: Slacked at Cine and come to the decision of Speedy, my life is super mundane!)))):

Look at Brian's diva pose ;)
Roy and me

I was trying to look like as though I'm shitting, do I?
I look horrendous here :/

these were photos taken that very day which i forgot when it was. we had a hard time forming those words at Heeren's and it also created plenty of joke and embarrasment :/

reality of life, im facing it

thats pretty good for me

cause i know it inside my heart so well

here's something for someone whom i miss dearly


I wasn't feeling good when we were like this. Times like these makes me miss the past and friendship of ours alot. This period of time has somehow been a test for our friendship and I hope we can all bond closer than before. Time heals wound. The heart that has been hurt and all. Everything's been in the past and no more looking back. Instead, we miss you dearly. Though it has never been said from us but we do. We're all hoping that we could somehow slowly let things be back. No lies.


The day ended so tiring with work. Again, work tmr): Heart to heart talk with tweeny. Felt better after pouring it all out. Goodnights(:



tired

strong's something I need to be now(:


random post again. work isnt killing much of me though. i need more to kill me and my emptyness away. plans have been made here and there and it got me sooo headache. moolahs and moolahs, i need you to come to me sooon! then i need to hunt for plenty of things. my 18th is just next month and i've plenty of wishes to make and hope they come true. oh wells, i shall blog it down some other time, time for bed now (: Goodnights!

Today was town, like again. Seriously, town is boring the shit outta me. I get so sick sometimes. S'pore is really really small. Speedy was next. That was how I spent my Sunday, super boring :/ & im now webcaming with Ben, husband. Only I can see him cause sad to say, i haven gotten a webcam yet):

Photos for that very day when we met him(:

Mr Boyfriend (:

Met My Boyfriend in the early noon, headed to his place then TP. I swear it's fucking far! Looked around and got entertained by their really friendly students, saw Melluh too(: Headed back his place to dye his hair and mine but turned out :/ Down to town to meet the rest before going PLAY. It was super boring and packed yest night. & i'm glad tweeny and me had a heart to heart talk(: I love you plenty! :D

He's the ever so smelly fingers of mine!

party tonight :D i misss partying! I need blonde extensions?

Worked at Tampines yesterday. Tiring and cold yet fun(: trained down to meet Baby at Somerset and headed t Alley t meet her friends before we cab down to Zouk. Had a plenty of drinks there and got myself high anf tipsy. Cabbed home afterwhich. Drop dead the moment after i showered.





needed
NOT

A day to off myself from everything and everyone.

Work today, all I know was I kept on falling asleep. Gosh, it shows how badly i need my sleep): and for once, today, thats how I feel people can change within a month. It seems like yesterday where we were still like before. Somehow it's so scary to know how someone once close to you could end up giving you that distant feel now. Even though times like today when i miss the good old times we work but I just feel you're scary. Yes, it's a feeling of fear which I dont know why also. And it seems like vicious is what is becoming into you. I rather the old than now where even when i stand so close to you yet I dont feel what seems to be before. Somehow or rather, it's disappointing in the heart

Edited

met husband, Ben jus now((((: along with Wanhua, Daph and Baby. Dined at Subway and then headed to Coffee Club for some coffee and chill out sessions tgt. The feeling is really great! I can swear! :D It's been so long since I actually have this warm feeling. Oh wells, I really wish time could stop for that moment and Ben wouldn't have to be back to Aust aft my birthday))): & that'll be the very last time we'll be sending him away.




it's all a dream

Rainy days makes me feel even more empty inside. Today I feel even more empty inside which i dont understand why myself. Somehow I'm learning to indugle myself totally even my mind when im outside. But I love chilling at Spins today, the feeling was something which you can't explained but can only be felt in the heart. It's really very heart-warming and i felt the love.





I feel myself getting more and more empty inside
but im hiding it from everyone

A sudden urge to blog now. Words sometimes mislead us in our thinking and how we see things. It can also anger someone easily too. That's when feelings inside starts to get up and everything will come out of your mouth naturally. Sometimes i wish i could jus d-i-s-a-p-p-e-a-r for a period of time. To hide from those words, feelings and things that makes me feel so stuck up. The feeling of giving up and trying and giving up and trying is sucky. Disappointments then come in one after another. Thats why you'll feel upset and all and start to rant. But thinking about it, it may feels different to certain people, afterall not everyone shares the same thoughts. So sometimes even when you rant, they feel nothing and the pain is all on you. Taking it out physically doesnt help AT ALL. It seems stupid to be holding the penknife destroying the wonderful picture. Even fi you're half dead drunk, its all still on you. The pain tends to lie there so long. I guess someday it'll explode. wait and see.






me. random

Sentosa today! (: neither did i get myself sunburnt nor really tanned myself. went there to relax myself and my mind which has been so hectic this past weeks. plus its been ages since i went Sentosa. even though the morning plan was messed up but everything else went on smoothly and we had much fun tgt :D esp kelvin who was SUPER sexy in his trunks :/ left at 4-ish and headed to vivo for dinner and Dexter came. camwhored plenty before we left to Speedy again -.- spent some time there before i left for home.

My husband-to-be aka tweeny(:

ben, me and tweeny
spot kelvin th SUPER sexy toxic:D
group photo after Dexter came.
To end off the post(;

I realise i feel much more energetic at night :/

had a bad afternoon, totally don't feel like mentioning it again. anyway its all in the past. twenny's place before training down to town. headed to Heeren's for dinner and then down to Speedy. kinda a boring life im leading right now. i seriously need more work to fill up my empty-ness and time.




give up, i really need to

Tampines isn't a nice place to work): it took me an hr plus or so to get there and i had the worst sales ever :/ after work was meeting up with my usuals. the sight of seeing everyone makes me really really happy. Boyfriend was nice, he made oreo cheesecake with a heart on it for a few of us including me(: it cheers me up so much. Then a few sms-es and phone calls makes my mood super down. talked to Baby and she felt me totally and all the advices she gave. Tweeny was next and it got me better to let things outta my chest. cabbed home and i realise i haven shower, and i stink :/





sometimes i wish i wasn't born girl
till now nothing has brought my mood up

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DADDY (((: I LOVE YOU ! :D

lover and me both wore the same french connection top along with a vest conincidentally! HAHA


met up with lover last night over at HK cafe at Cine. and we both went HAHAHAHA cause we both wore the same top coincidentally la. left early cause wasnt feeling well and headed home for an early rest. my legs was damn tired last night because i was labelled the middleman and i walked all around orchard.