today seems to be one very relaxing day.totally cut off from work and the outside world.it's good to have such day like today.whereby i do everything i want and need at my own pace without having to rush.i had half of the room which belongs to me cleaned up, painted a fresh coat of nail color, gave my hair some treatment, did a facial mask, slept in till late noon, had my usual honey green tea, bought my fav dark choco maltesers:) and had a meal today.but i snacked alot which is a very bad habit that i must kick away.town is going to be so packed tmrw and i do not wish to be sqeeuzing like on fucktard there, feels stupid.i've plans made.dinner with gappers(been pretty long since we all met) and then tantric for countdown.i hope tmrw night would be a pretty good one to end '08:) i shall be persistent and stick to 1meal per day but less snacking!and i had better sleep earlier tonight for im working morning shift tmr.goodnights!

things.
1.get myself a book and indulge in it
2.school officially starts on th 5th jan
3.afternoon classes=more sleep=less play
4.cultivate habit of eating fruits more frequently
5.start to cut down on fastfood(th times i have fastfood for breaks ever since i work, is getting hugeeee)
6.buy new contacts
7.get new pair of jeans
8.Roy_dad b'day dinner on 1/1
9.7jan powerhouse with the girls
10.im very x a million happy today:D
lastly, goodnights!

spastic

HAHAHAHAHA!

my face look superb chio in this, i swear!thanks to CPX for that wonderful photo taken:)))) you know i love you alot for this photo hor!

m'sia.

very tired cause my mom woke me up at 11am when i slept at 6am): we're heading m'sia to check out the new mall and also to pop by to visit my popo.the new mall wasn't that good as i expected.never bought much things but saw a pair of nice levis jeans but i'll still have a second thought before i bought:)we bought back alot of tibits and i think i'll gain like a few more pounds this weeek.urgh fuck!

santa:)

my xmas eve was spent working.and i actually mistook the day that i was supposed to go down tantric to have my gift collected from twiny.feel super bad bout it, but i'll definitely make it up to you very soon ok,i promise:) so on xmas,after i finished up with my work,rushed home to get changed before i hit suntec for the dinner.and just like that my 40bucks was gone)): neverthelesss it's the company that counts afterall.after dinner we hit MS for alot of places and ended up outside MS around 1am sitting down talking.then we headed down to meridien before i finally convinced myself to go home at 5am.my eyes were hurting so badly as if i was going to be blind anytime.and i felt so sleepy.got home like close to 6am in the morning.very very tired indeed.


this year xmas is rather quiet.even i just don't have the xmas happy feeling.i dont know why either.maybe i've chunks of things occupying me now, mostly work.we also didnt have much happenings nor party for this xmas maybe that explains why either.or because of march13th.and alot more things weighing so much inside my head nowadays.i think i overstress myself alot recently.all out of a sudden, i find myself looking so haggard.im so tired.

brandon_pooney's 22nd:)

brandon_pooney:)
lovin' this gift from cpx and co.
this was how bad the present was wrapped up.
the process took long and i almost fell asleep as i was too tired, but he seems very happy bout it:D
ok, joyce told everyone what my gift exchange gift was and it was same as LH! chocolates! in the end, everyone was praying hard not to get it but unlucky brandon got it):hahaha. and when we took turns to open our gifts and when it was his, he was doing all sorts of irritating expressions.hahahaha.we all had a good laugh from that.


nevermind that, amos thought he was lucky but ended up he got joyce's gift and it was chocolates too!!!
pooneyyysssss:)

us&brandon:)

march13th

i don't like that date and will not hope that it comes fast): i've done the math, it's just 78more days to the 13th. i'll heck everything for that day just for you,my friend:)

housekeeping.

finally a day for me to rest in today. and of course i did had a good night sleep though i managed to only get home around 2?decided to head out t town for some retail therapy even though it is a sunday and i hate t shop on sunday because it's effing packed everywhere.oh did i mention?I LOVE TO SHOP ALONE.i dont know why either but i just like it somehow.i used to feel so lonely but after ahwile i actually got so used to it.since it's a sunday almost all the shops you go into, would take you a while before you could try on the clothes.kinda annoying i know cause im a impatient person.and right i waited for 10mins in F21 just to try a top.but im pretty happy with what i've got today even though i haven't found my ideal shoe yet:) and xmas is just next week!goodness i can't wait to go party with all my friends.and more shopping to come by on friday to m'sia!:D


pretty happy cause i managed to clear out majority of my clothes that i rarely wear, can't fit, old etc etc.got them packed into 3 seperate bags and waiting t dump them over at salvation army near my place:) ok im working 6days next week and im pretty cool bout it!





and that was then when we went t dempsey for wine:))

dec

im so worn out now.it has really been very long since i felt so exhausted.seriously this holiday has really been a thumbs up!:)even though i spent 3/4 of the time working non stop and sometimes i'd feel im like a cow, slogging very hard.

and it's darn tiring but at the end of the day, the customer's smile makes you feel its worth it(i tell you this is bullshit!not true at all lorh!)i'd say at the end of the day,we'll all feel satisfied having slogged together for the whole day.the customers irritate you more only.in fact most of them are very annoying!they loveee to do stupid things at the wrong time,like asking you to fucking climb up the chair just to take a pair of thongs for their tiny whiny smelly feet, thats not what will drive you mad but when you tell them there's really no sizes and they fucking insist that you search in front of them to make them feel better, omg screw them!asking you for sizes at the most busiest time of the store and when you answer "no"in a monotone,they will think you fucking give them attitude which is not true cause you're busy!i think people nowadays are very eccentric.and i loathe P and I people the most!! they really make your blood boils.cause they're very insistent people who drives you mad to the maximum and i think until they see that pissed off face of yours then only they will stop.and some people cheat off 10bucks when they buy like over 60bucks worth of clothings.i met one just yesterday and she insisted on arguing,i gave in to her in the end feeling pissed.if i ever see her in the store,i'd stand in front of her and screw her back badly.


nevermind that,i still have very lovely colleagues who always never fail to make me smile and my anger to go away.and im still very happy working:) i've been working like 5days for this week which is more or less equivalent to a full timer alr.only wed,which i was suppose to meet my ahpong kias but my wisdom tooth fucked me up in the morning and my mouth was swollen one side cause of the back gum which swell up so badly.i had the pain for the whole day and i finally got better yesterday.ohoh! i met my loves yesterday also after work.im glad this time they made it earlier!:D but it was also the first and last time i'd pay 8bucks for a pepsi, a plate of chicken rice can cost 20bucks.anyway i didnt get it.so we make a super last min decision to catch twilight.k my last movie was four xmas.twilight=2.5/5nacho chips.i think it was boring at the start but good at the end.and the male lead actor melt me with his eyes!and good thing is halfway through,my gastric fucked me up and i nearly puked but thanks to nanny's sour plum sweets, i got better.


i think i need to rest more.havent catch more than 8hrs of sleep daily.my health is getting bad with all the gastric and wisdom tooth fucking up.

anger

for all these years, he was the one who managed the family.we didnt dare to voice out whatever we felt were not right simply because he was the one who brought us up. but i hated so much inside. cause he's nothing to me now. and i don love him at all. even that day how much sad stories i've heard from both my single-parent friend, the first person who came into my mind was mommy and only mommy. he? not even anywhere near there. i dont feel like talking to you now at all.

i think no amount of shopping could help brighten up my mood now.cause my gums are seriously so swollen and the pain is so bad like there's a major cramp in the gums.very very bad))): my mood is just so bad now.i've no mood for anything, not even my favourite.

Days

we always have changes.and i've to admit i hate changes and in fact i need a long time to accept them.days like that with people transferring over to new stores, promoting to store manager, becoming a 2nd IC, newbies coming in the store, fucked up people who always go against us, people exerting pressure on us etc.sometimes i could hardly gasp for air.just feel so tight around my chest area.it's soooooo bad that i take quite awhile to go back to the same old shape.


i think if i were to continue on like that,i'd turn into a workaholic very soon.i hate the feeling of empty and not occupied with anything to do nowadays.i'd rather work,work and work.even though the pressure is there but still it's all part of life.


we've people leaving us very soon and people coming in time and time.what we need to do is to cry,hush and move on bravely.i promise them that i''ll do an awesome job so that they won't feel they have made the wrong choice:)

ihatetodaybadly

it wasn't meant to be a fucked up day but you just had to appear right in front of me after for not appearing for months.so please, do not ever pat me from behind like you just did and act like you&me are BESTFRIENDS of the whole wide world.cause it simply disgust me off alot and when i mean alot,it's ALOT.i'd pray to god to never let me see you again cause it reminds me of so much unhappy things that i promise myself to forget.so i really wish that i'd not see you anymore or bump into you and you start yada yada about so many things like "how's yr exams?"etc etc.if given a choice,i'd not know you at all, sometimes admiring is a beautiful art and a way of not walking into a world which doesnt belong to you and in the very end you get those bullshit fucked up feelings like i did months back.even though the appearance of you got me so shaken suddenly but i should do what i promise myself to.never to look back.i've moved on bravely.for what i know we're not even Hi-Bye friends.i just know saying such things to you isnt worth that few seconds cause simply i'd say it to someone who really appreciates me rather than taking me as a bloody fool.



what a way the day had to be.but nevertheless it has been really tiring today for me,meeting,work(i exert million times my normal energy&speed)=super super tired me,good laughters with Edd&Gin.at least i managed to laugh till my stomach cramped just now which totally made up for the unhappiness i had for a few mins.k lah, i love the 2 irritants.goodnights now cause i want to sleep and tmr is another funn day with happy pills!

Monday

sometimes we all will really understand the feeling of alone.we tend to fear and worry the "what-if".what if we do not even have a single friend and what if some decides not to be my friend, we all worry and thats not something new.at times we feel like we've drift so much from a certain friend but in fact, nothing has changed.it is all the way of our thinking.everyone is afraid of changes cause we're challenged to accept them.no one likes changes and of course hopes for everything t stay for life but it will never happen.accepting and letting go is all part of life.feeling of unbearable is there but who knows it might be for good but people never tend to think this way.every min,the world is changing.there's people dying,cryin over at the dead,praying for their loved ones,hoping for world peace,praying for miracle.we all dont know and yet we seem to have so much rants bout life,sometimes even i myself dont understand too.what is life?



i;'d been too tied down with work.only managed to be out during off days.luckily it wasn't say that bad cause i had tons of meetups with different people and i realise im spending so much time lesser with my twiny.looking back, we used to spend so much time together.i really miss those times where we bake at his place,where we 2 will meet up at his place to cook,going to town together,shopping together and many other things.but we're all too tied down with many things around us.nevertheless, the bond is still there.im very glad about it(: i love you twiny!meet me sooonnn!:D

sunday with D:)

snapped!

britney's circus.

mushroom head car!

Jia xiang jia xiang jia xiang, mian mian mian!

Kolo miannnnn:D

flyerrrrr:)

D met me today and accompanied me for shopping.know town is getting very boring with nothing much i see fancy me): fareast=boring.i couldn't find the white wedges that i pictured in my mind.but i got myself lovely ctue undergarments todayy:D i want more and more dresses!so tmr before work,im going down to get them.we walked alot today in town and it poured a little.down to marina sqaure for dinner.then we walked over to flyer and take a breeze.the night scenery was good, isnt it?:)but it was definitely a make-out place cause there were many them doing that there:/thanks to D for fetchig me home in mushroom head car.Goodnights!work tmr,let's hype up together~

boys

from newton seafood, we changed to swensens but the quene was baddddd))): so i didnt satisfy my ice-cream cravings.instead we make do with hk cafe at Cine.nevertheless with the right company,everything is good.we were like tourist,snapping pitcures with the xmas lightings in town.saw wawa as well.and popped by GJ t see D.home after supper and i had insomia for the whole night and i got up my bed as early as 630am to prepare to go training.


saturday.i was bout to cross the road, seeing this lorry u-turning and i could make a quick one for th road but who knows a motorcycle came out and was heading here and i hasten up and not seeing what's infront, i bang myself on something like a rope(a thick one) and i ended up having 2 small scratches on my nose bone which sucks and my eyelid was scratch because of that.when i told estee and co how it happened,they all laughed at how clumsy and stupid i was.hahahaha.i think i fall alot and i must learn to be not so clumsy(i hope).then my left eye got in contact with some dust and ended up with me having red eye home)))";i took a cab and got mac for supper before home.the whole night was terrible cause my nose was being such irritant!one moment i feel like taking it out and washing it over and over.hahah.


happy thing, going out with D later on!wooooo,that botak boyyyy.

four xmas:)

today had been a totally awesome day for me! never felt this good after soooooo longggggg. many things made me so happy today.
1. met ben & went f freeee movies(four christmases), rating 3.5/5popcorns
2.went wisma and i saw 2 lovely tops, hesitated before getting, so reserved it first
3.paragon to meet roy_dad, he was shopping f xmas decor for tantric
5.we spent some quaity time together = happpehhhh
6.over to wisma again and he thinks those tops are good, so bought it!
7.got a 50% off for the 2nd top!:DDD
8.scratch&win $10bucks off next purchase!
9.got an advanced xmas gift from somebody(you know who you're)
10.in total i got 4 pieces of clothings today!happehhhh:DDD
11.ate yummy dinner with roy_dad
12.was bout t call twiny when on the bus, he called me!
13.crashed his place and say hello to his papa&mama&ahma!:D
14.we strolled back to my house from his place!(ohhhhhh,i misss those old old times!)
15.we talked alot alot alot today = VERY VERY HAPPEH ME!
16.my prayers were answered!cause im effing lucky to get th last piece of jacket!:D
17.my shopping expenses were sponsered by my dearest mommy!

im the world's most luckiest&happiest girl on earth!:D

&guess what?FINALLY meeting brian_naima&D tmr f supper at newton and i can't wait lah!!!!!!!

i still have a dress or rather 2 dresses i've yet to get and also have yet t go F21 to check out clothes, gonna do that next week when i find time.

still thinking whether I should go with tiff_tsn for the xxx virgin experience!omfg,im soooo confused now:/

i've t start my xmas shopping next week for chocolates&some other stuffs.

work tmr, any shop visits, anyone?:) goodnights!

dinner&dance'08

wisma-ians:))))))
tang tang:)
Esteeeeeee:DDD
Ginnie in a bottle
They say we look alike, do we?:) hahahah


drinks were seem to be on free flow yesterday. i had heinkein non-stop and didnt know how many cups i actually drank. i just know eddie kept on making me drink drink and drink but he's a sucker when it comes to "hai dai". nevertheless yesterday night had been a good one considered for a tues night:) everyone kept on snapping and pulling more and more people into the picture. oh ya! i found my long-lost sister last night, mark. cause everyone says we look alike! the food wasn't that good but im pretty sure the whole company made up for it. we even went f late night supper over at kopitiam and had char kway tiao which apparently suck to the maximum! i'l never go there unless otherwise. home around 230am and after removing my makeup, i fell flat on the bed.


holidays are here!:))) i've got many more plans coming up. double o again with happy pills, batam trip with happy pills, xmas dinner & celebration with loves, workworkwork, family and friends! i think i must start to shop for xmas presents when i've the time:) & im meeting ahbenahbenahben tmr!:D free movie(wild child) and nachos!