M's photography :)


Eleanor, Thanks for the concern babe :) I hope I never recover from the huge loss of appetite! Haha, I wanna slim down and not have any inch of fat any where on my body. My mood affects my appetite too. I think it's all PMS.


Vic, Thanks love! :) I hope you're doing fine too(cause I can tell you're not).

My moodswing this time round is very bad. I feel tired very easily, I don't feel like talking to anyone at all, I just wanna be in my own world and do my own things, I hate every part of my body because it spells F-A-T, losing 2kg seems like 0.000000002g):, going anywhere just makes me uncomfortable, dont know where I should head to, feeling so empty inside, have the urge to splurge on clothes, bags and shoes, wanna get an Iphone ASAP, wanna go Bkk, wanna escape from this island, wish that I need not study so hard for a fucking cert. My moodswing can get really bad, when it gets bad, do not even try talking to me, I'll probably scream off your head.

Wasted 5bucks on a average prawn mee at Food Republic just now as I only had 4-5mouths and Im pretty full. The prawns, meat, veg and 3/4 of the noodles was ALL UNTOUCHED. I just had NO appetite at all suddenly. When I was about to leave town for home, I went into 7-11 and to my surprise, I found this papaya milk drink I've looking for! With no hesitation, I bought it and chuck it inside my bag. Probably this was something thats worth to be happy bout for a shitty saturday I had. Shitty because of a complaint -.- I dont know why I look into it so much this time round where I used to not pretty much bother it last time if I were to hear about it. Maybe because like what Fel told me, I'm giving myself unnecessary stress because I wanna achieve something at work this year. Fuck it, sometimes when I'm supposed to be making it perfect, I screwed it up.

Nevertheless, I'm still fine. It's just a saturday. Tmr's sunday and im gonna be working again-.- sounds boring isnt it. Gonna get a good night rest tonight and charged up for work tmr :) Goodbye fags.

hello world,

Thank god its friday, marks the weekends!
Nothing much for this weekends, except w o r k. Next weekend would be better





Goodnights world.

Half a bowl of fishball noodle in the morning was my brunch and dinner for the whole of Thursday.
My appetite went fucked up again, im back to one meal per day, soon aneroxic is gg to hit me.
I'll be skinny fries thin, I wish that happen. No flabby arms and legs, no pertruding tummy
But again, NO! I'M GONNA BE LOOKING LIKE A FREAK.
Photoscape's pretty fun, look what I tried to edit, might not be as gr8 as you think,
At least, it's something to me ok, ME LIKEY :)
Sometimes it's just fate, you meet people you see on the streets online.
Having so much things on hand to complete these few days,
Gifts making/shopping, cutting hair, MWL, work, revision.

Talking about today, I realise how one can hold on so strong to all the sorrows and tears
The empty feeling inside will never go away,
It seems like yesterday that someone was just next to you,
And the next thing you know, you can never have him there anymore.
It seems cruel but it's true. Its the damn fact we can't change.
In fact, I felt so heavy upon witnessing it. The way she gave me a squeeze on my hand.
I gave her back cause thats my way of giving her support:)
Be strong A:)

After the sudden phone call from Brandon about what happen, I realised life is really short
We really don't know what might happen next,
maybe we couldn't even say the last goodbye to our loved ones around us.
It seems so scary and my heart really pounded upon the news.
I hope you're doing fine, A :) Many condolences from the pills to you.

Monday marks the beginning of a new week. Aug flew by in the blink of an eye.
Sept is approaching and this marks 2 additional units to school. I might be meeting twiny
for "The Proposal" tonight. Can't wait cause I heard it's a pretty good show. I went to the supermarket this morning but I can't seem to find red-skinned potatoes for my potato salad. So frustrating man! Having my driving lessons later at 4pm, I'm so tired even though I have 12hrs of sleep last night. What's wrong with me?

You know I'll miss u:)

Mini supper gathering with cottons aft work last night, shaw house macdonalds! Didn't had much since my stomach wasn't feeling very good the whole evening. I'm going to miss you badly when you're in Rubi, Ion. Hope you do well and continue rocking on with "Fitting room quene TO THE LEFT!" I love you always, my best sister ;) I had so much fun laughing last night. Fun always spells when you're with th right company. So glad I found this bunch of fun-lovin' crazy cottons. Working and having supper with them is always the best! Now that G sis left, all the pressure is on me. I've got a goal to work towards to now, am trying very hard to achieve it. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself but I can't help it though. Anyway, work hard and leave no room for regrets.


After so much self-reflection, I realise it was a mistake of 2years. I couldn't understand why I had such thinking at that point of time 2years back. But I'm SUPER glad that I realised it fast enough to stop all the misery I caused to my family and friends who love me and I love them. This seems to be really a good lesson for me. I've promised myself to work hard and I can proudly say my achievements next time:) Another 2years of hard work for me, I believe this time round, this 2years will be a good and fresh start for me.


What goes around, comes around:)

Yesterday was greattt! I love min-gathering sessions with pills ALOT! They never fail to make me laugh until my stomach cramp. Especially the guys, they're forever up to no good in teasing anything about me that they can find. We had dinner at East Coast Park, Laguna Food Centre. The satay beehoon lip smacking good! :D Chicken wings, oyster fried egg and satays followed by. Even had the famous duck porridge man. I'm never a fan of porrigde but the one at ECP made me fell in love with it! After dinner, the guys drove over to Macau Hk cafe at Siglap area. I'd say it's really one of the BEST hf cafe I've ate at so far. Food and desserts were both good :) Amos came really late but nevertheless we still managed to do some catching up before we seperated our way home. Thanks to Ivan, he was kind enough to drop me home with his new Mazda. Supposingly I was supposed to meet Amos for lunch at Ion after my work but I wasn't feeling good so I left around 12pm from my workplace. I guess it all amounts to the 5hrs of sleep I've everyday and the fried and oily stuff that I've been gorging down alot lately. Next week, night jogging resumes!

I'm starting to realise even more the humans are plain selfish creatures, including me. I'm not denying that im not selfish. I think I'd look so fake if I said so. Come on, who in the world wouldn't place themselves and their benefits first before they do things. And sometimes we all get so easily shaken with words from others. Words or things we might not even know whether it could be true. And it would also be then our judgement for that particular person gets shaken or maybe the impression of that person to u, shatters totally the next moment. We all look at things in different angle and come up with different views when we dont know the truth at all. Sometimes I really feel that being non-judgemental isn't easy at all. We're all humans and we judge, don't you?



I was down at clark quay last night with my colleagues. Ming and me were drinking and chilling at yellow jellow first since th rest hadn't reached. We had in total 4-5jugs of heinkein and I was dying from it when I was at the 4th or 5th jug. I guess it all resulted because I drank too fast and too much and thus I puked out a little and was feeling very seh when the rest came. We only hit Rebel at about 12midnight. It was my virgin experience there and I've been hearing alot from my friends thus decided to go but also it's going to my last time there as well. I can't stand the crowd there. It's even smaller than the old Play and everyone you see are humans. The paths are all jammed with people dancing, chilling and standing around. We were having a really hard time to find a spot for ourselves. Halfway through the crowd, there was this bitch who shouted right in my ear "Fuck la, why all standing here and not moving sia?" I was like WTF? Seriously man, we were TRYING to move and the people in front aint giving way, so how do you expect us to move? See, thats what I meant, I hate the type of crowd there. Zouk is like 10times better. Dancefloor was even worse and there were so many touchy guys around, so eew. Anyw we got out around 4am and I was really thankful. Hit home in a cab with Ming and managed to turn in at 430am and I woke up at 9am to go M'sia with my mom and sister this morning! I got a shocked after I washed up and looked at my complexion in the mirror. I'm having a bad bad breakout, think its due to the inconsistent doing of my masks and my scrub. Plus I'm not having any enough sleep either and not drinking enough water everyday. Must start doing all this soon, I don't want a buang face):


Goodnights world, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE! :)

I screwed up my first.

Totally screwed up my first day of school today. First, I woke up at 715am when my class starts at 830am. I decided to just go school with specs and nude face today so I managed to get outta house around 730am. Luckily, the bus didn't screw me up too, I managed to get on and squeezing myself with all those chestnut drive kids. But I felt something was amiss when I left the house and until I reach the bus stop I still couldn't figure out and it was then I realise I left my phone at home! ): I was left with no choice but to go school without my phone and I was meeting tiff 815am at the sch bus stop. I waited from 810am to 830am and I didnt see her alighting from any buses so I started to panick and luckily I bumped into one of my diploma classmate who knew I was stuck waiting for tiff there. I think she bumped into tiff outside the LT and tiff literally rushed to the bus stop to find me :) Phew! I was still thinking I managed to make it to class on my first day, was on the dot man!



Who knows we met some bunch of irritating foreign girls in the LT who "chopped" seats for their beloved friends. We saw that the 2 seats was empty and went down to sit and only upon sitting did one of them actually told us they chopped it for their friend. But it was already 830am and the class was starting. Worse of all, there were no more seats left! So we just sat down and went ahead with the lecture without bothering them even though their face was like "tsk" but tiff's face was much more fierce so they didn't dare argue back or something. I'm alright with chopping seats as I do that too. But come on la, it's like already 830am and the class is starting and there were NO seats around so where you expect us to sit?! Sit on you is it. Stupid or what, never use brain to think. I really can't tahan some of the foreign girls in my class, irritating to the max.



Well tiff and I became the bitches on the 1st day of school. LOL. I fell asleep during the first half of the class and after the break I was better because I had my power power(coffee). But it ended up with a upset stomach):


After my class,I called my mom up and decided to meet her and my sister at Jurong Point to get some tonic and birdnest for my poor popo who is hospitalized in M'sia. We're all visiting her on sunday morning:) Popo, get well soon. Me love you! Mummy spent alot today. We went to SK to get my cousin's wedding gift which cost around 300bucks, ended up my mom bought a diamond ring for about 500? and adding on my sister too bought herself one which is around 200. Awesome much! Next time I also wanna get myself a diamond ring! I feel that the feeling is super shiok when you wear one and I believe all girls look nice with diamonds! :) Heee, my sister bought me a levis jeans! WOOOO! Love her!


Hopefully nothing goes wrong tmr and I can meet Mr Fu because he's flying off to Tokyo on fri morning and I'm waiting for him to come back with my magazine and my white chocolate biscuit!:)

I've been doing alot of thinking on my own recently. Managed to sort out many unwanted thoughts and get it off me. It feels good(: Especially whenever I go jogging nowadays, i try to sort out whatever thats probing me inside. After the run, I feel super good. It feels like I've really let all the unhappiness out.


I made the same mistake twice. And I found myself stupid and foolish. Come to think of it, i'll never see anything good to it. But I didn't know why I fell in for it again. It's just all bout feelings, i'd say. Luckily I managed to get those hard feelings outta me fast. Then again, it's probably not totally but i'll get movin' on.


I fell in love with sugar coated biscuits. My mom bougt 1/2kg for me to munch on them. Very sinful though and i get sore throats after having too much. Finally after so many months, I get to go shopping with my babys in town tmr(: I really can't wait to enjoy myself. Because I've never managed to do so for the past months. School on wed. Im going to work hard because its the start of a 2year long journey for me.


Fu is gg to tokyo!!! And I make sure he brings sakura back for me, my fav biscuit and many other things! But the thing I want most is, he could pack me in his luggage and bring me along!