Swollen left eyelid :(

Well I haven't been stepping outta house for a good 3days except for just now to see the doc over at my house area. In case you're wondering why, it was because of my eyelid that had got infection and the whole eyelid swell up on monday morning, discovered it after I woke up. My left eye was barely able to open on its on. Had to strain my eyes for the whole day as I needed to study for my Marketing pp next monday as well. Endured for a good 2days before I finally decided to visit the doc today. The doc ensured me that it was like an infection and inside th swell up part contains a little yellowish liquid and blood so I needed to get it out. In order to get that out, he needs to give me an injection on my eyelid to numb it before poking through :/ Just typing it out reminds me of the process again and how I screamed cause the injection was worse than poking th thing! Maybe because it was alr numb. Anyw I feel so much better now, and th swelling shld go off tmr morning :)


Some updates here as well. Last saturday, bin brought me out for dinner + movie = happy rachel :) We spent the late afternoon in town as we only managed to wake up ard 1pm because we drank the night before at wine company. Caught Ironman 2, I'd say the movie was a bit too draggy in front, maybe if it was shorter, it might have been nicer. But the later part of the show was what caught me gg till the end and they have really longgg credits man. Anyw dinner for that day, we settled down at Lido's Dome. I'd say it was a pleasant first time experience there. The food was served quite fast, service was excellent and most importantly we had a great time dining there :)


Can't wait for our 6mth anni over at wine company during June! :D


Anyw I need to mug for my last lap which is on monday and I will be done! Can finally catch Ip man 2 on monday w bin and have a really good dinner w no worries on my mindd :))

Exams week started since monday. Till now, things hadn't been at its best. I feel so screwed after every paper, like really. It's just a feeling of disappointment overwhelming me, that I put in alot of effort and focus yet I still can't seem to perform well. But I can say UOL exams is one of the exam period which I mugged really hard for it. 3 down and 1 more to go, can't imagine 3mths later and dun wish to imagine.


I'm really glad through this period whereby my stress level on the maximum level, I still have people around me encouraging me alot. Got to thank them :) I love you guys. Thanks for being there for me. Esp my mom. I dun know how to thank her but still thanks mom! She didn't lecture me instead she told me this " If you really do badly this time, dun worry, we'll work out something tgt that will be more suitable for you. We wouldn't want you to study till you hurt yourself." I really felt so touched at that point of time. My mom's really th best. She doesnt mind the money but she loves me so much that I feel that sometimes I dun love her that much which makes me guilty. For now, im feeling much better.


Anyw I really need to train up my mentality when it comes to dealing with stress. I'm pretty vulnerable and I'll breakdown at times which I know that it doesnt get the problem solved. So I'm learning and moving to become someone mentally stronger. In this way, my mom wouldn't worry so much bout me.


Good thing that my next paper is on th 17thmay. 1more week till that. I can release abit of myself tonight when I meetup with the rest over at Dempesey Rd. I need some beer tonight ;)

Feeling down

I just had to post what I'm feeling inside out. Probably I might feel better aft doing so. Everyone ard me all thinks I will be able to make it through th 2yrs rd I've chosen. I used to think that IF im more disciplined in terms of sch I will be able to do it. But it doesn't seem like it. Instead I need to be even more hardworking than everyone else, more disciplined w myself than what I thought I should have been. It was definitely a fact that I didn't managed to do any of th above that is mentioned. And now as my last lap is nearing,Ice doubts bout myself. Th thought of "mayb I'm not cut out for UOL" just came into my mind. I should have jus not been impulsive enough to rush thru my decision on my choice of uni. But th truth now is what's th fucking point of me receding into it now when I'm at this stage? All these shld be jus complaints and unneccessary thoughts which MUST be thrown aside. Instead I shouldn't give up now and give my best shot to it before I call quits. No one accepts things like "I've did my best". Sad t say not even my parents, instead they will probably think "why is it that you don study hard when we pay for yr studies?" contridicting to whatever I've mentioned earlier on isn't it. Tell me how I shld be feeling now. I had a breakdown jus nw,needed to vent it out. I'm jus afraid. Yet no one understands my fear.

Mugging days sucks badly

I shall do an update on my space here since I've some time off my books tdy :) Everyday of this week is like mundane; I wake up, my mom packs lunch for me, finish off lunch, catch some tv time, time for my books, dinner time, some tv time again, shower and back to books!! Omg, tell me is this life?! Why does exams period is uni seems so different in dms days? Sometimes I can mug to an extend that I fear that I might end up failing everything(CHOYY) and end up crying like its the end of th world. But then sometimes I get pretty confident bout my papers. Urgh,very irritated with this caught up feeling of being no where.


Anyway I've many plans and things on mind about what I wanna do durin my 3mths long holidayys which is coming in another 2weeks aft the hell time of life.

-Scrapbooking class
-Start to DIY my board(this board I intend to use it for 21st next yr)
-GO check out every place frm Sentosa to Pasir Ris chalet for a next 21st next yr
-Mad shopping on my cosmetics and skincare
-Eat up all of bin's money. I srsly need very good food aft exams
-Retail therapy needed!!
-Wanna find a full time office job
-Then I can buy my first Prada in my 20yrs of life
-Drive more and park more so my dad can let me on the rd by myself!
-Meet up with friends whom I've not seen for the longest time!!
-HIGHLIGHT HAIRRR
-Go clubbing with monster&co

Sad thing is, wont be able to have a getaway with bin in June as he might be starting his new job soon. So we got to save up the kachings for year end. Maybe some mega shopping madness in BKK. I think w/o my parents/sisters with me, I can buy 20pairs of shoes, endless clothes and accessories! Hahahaha. I was restricted when I went bkk with them last december. My sisters and mom nagged me on my shoes :/


And another reason why I've time here is because my stupid sister who jus came hm and was gg to shower(same as me) so we scissors paper stone and the loser shower last. But apparently she lost and insist on showering first so I ended up sitting in front of my laptop for awhile. Asshole sister. HAHAHA

KTHXBYE! :>

Happy advance birthday Candy!

Totally didnt have a wink the night before. Insomia came knocking on my door :/ Got out of bed as early as 9am. Had breakie and started mugging. Life sucks when its exams period. And u know you've got to make it thru cause you wouldn't wanna spend the 1k to repeat. Sucks big time.

Anyw met up with bin in the late noon to hit Vivo to meet the rest aft their Sentosa trip. We were early and they were late so we ended up resting our sleepy souls at Pacific Coffee Company. Cool breeze, light shower, coffee with just you and me spells perfect :)


Caramel Latte was a tad bit too sweet for me. Still prefer Starbuck's :)


Love this shot taken by love :)
We wanted to dine in at one of the steamboat places in Vivo but the price was abit too over and we left Vivo to the exact same place where Candy had her birthday dinner last year! Parkroyal Hotel over @ Kitchener Rd which is at Little India. Nearly died when we were there, all BLACK :/ Scary. Ming and G sis got her a strawberry shortcake and we had it as a surprise for her :)

The food was good, company was there and non stop laughters but a pity mummy Sandy wasnt there tdy cause she was sick :( Hope lil Caleb and her is doing alright now :]
Happy birthday jiemei!


With bloated tummies, we headed to the restroom aft dinner. Snap a few shots before heading outta restroom. Thats what girls are best at ;)

Self timer shot! It looks nice :]

Gonna start to give all outings/shoppings/work/online/fb a big miss now. 2weeks later I will be back. I need to fully concentrate to fight the battle frm 5th May till th 17th. Wooh.

Hopefully my warm milk is gonna help me to get some sleep tonight. If not lagi best. KTHXBYE! :D

Middle of th night

This is reaaly bad. My insomia Is getting worse each night. It's 3.31am now and I'm wide awake, to top it off,I'm having a terrible sighness. How good can it still get? Seriously need to everything right soon. It's tiring to use thick concealer to cover my dark eye rings. God,when will th sneezing stop? :(

Happy birthday hun!

Yesterday was bin's birthday :] In the morning, he went out for his interview before meeting me around 1plus in the noon. After we met up, we headed for a light lunch ard Vivo and settled down at Toast Box for mee siam. But it was a huge disappointment :< the mee siam tasted horrible and I got sick aft a few mouths. Didn't managed to finish 3/4 of the food.

After lunch, we shopped around Vivo and I finally found white denim skirts in Zara! To add on, I bought a ribbon blue&white polka dot tank to match it:D Just in Zara, I spent $70 for 2items (\M/)

Had a sudden craving for ice-cream so we hit off to B&J. The whole B&J was empty except for us and the staff there. So we almost had the whole place to ourselves! Had chunky monkey w choco mint :DD


I kinda love this photo :D








Ok, bin was sucha spoiler to my surprise. He ended up accidentally peeking at it and I had no choice so I decided to give him when we were having ice-creams :)

HAPPEH LOOK :DD

Reading th msg I wrote :D
Self DIY by yours truly :]
On top of that, I got him the swatch watch he eyed on some time ago. And it is also our 2nd couple watch :]]



Decided to have an early dinner so we could head down town early to M1 at Paragon to check out his iPhone deals there. I love ShinKushiya! :DD So I brought him there for dinner. The jap food there is seriously alot nicer than sakae/sushi tei! Plus all their sushi is made on the spot and served to us. So you won't be having sushi that has been placed there for long. And all the food there is VERY fresh :]
WO SHI JING CHA!
I'm feeling hungry aft seeing those pictures again :/



The aftermath of being hungry :x

:]


Think Shinkushiya is currently my top fav jap food followed by Sushi tei. I have yet to try out "Shabu Shabu" recommended by alot of ppl.


So after dinner, we spotted M1 shop in Vivo outta no where. So we decided to go in and have a look. But the service of the staff was very bad and she seemed so cocky, so we left the place w/o even saying thank you. Can't stand bad service. Trained down town and we walked around Ion. Wanted to another top but gave it a miss in the end, cause I've spent alot this month.

I started to feel very nauseous while shopping. And I knew it was probably indigestion frm the meal earlier on because I ate my last sushi in a rush and I didnt managed to chew the food properly before swallowing so in a way I swallowed the whole damn thing in a piece! It was really a terrible feeling, my chest started to cramp so badly . I tried to gulp down water but it doesnt work much. In the end, the cramp got really bad and I felt that the juice is gonna be out so I rushed off to the toilet. Felt better aftermath and bin brought me to have a hot drink. I scare th witts outta him.

Headed home around 9pm and we both were so tired that we slept the whole train journey home.

Glad that bin had a memorable birthday this yr:>