in less than a few hrs my mom's back and i can finally see her! 8 straight days without her was terrible. it seems like things get spoilt easily when she's not around. th weather is cold today and i stayed in. for a saturday afternoon i could be doing some great shopping in malls yet i chose to stay in. snuggle on my couch and filled my day with shows. bet tmr's gonna be the same old thing again. so i must go find more shows to watch. i'll be back working the week after next ): so next week im going to start looking for new jobs, maybe at th mall near my place? its gonna be so much easier for me to get home and get to work. i need moolahs to go shopping. i've got so much things to buy. i was browsing through my photos just now when i find an old photo of me like decades ago? let me show you guys and prepare to laugh. can't believe i didnt put makeup when i was out to town, untrim brows, minnie mouse necklace (lols!), kuku spectacles. zomg!

time and change

O-V-E-R :)

yes, exams are finally over. but doom's day has yet to come, 13th June. i hope i can fare well or average in my first exams. havent been sleeping well at all. so im going to replenish back all my sleep this few days before work starts. feel like changing into a new job, new enviroment and new start. people left, this is half of the reason for wanting to change jobs. another half will be i wanna start afresh in a new job, kinda sick and tired of K. even if exams are over, feel so empty on what should i do. i've been occupying my time watching shows, sleeping and eating. life's a bore and i realise i haven't got a life past few days. busy mugging and forgot bout the outside world. heh, but still remember my lovely loves. many things to start on and little time left to do. so i've decided to make my holidays a fulfilled one. occupy myself with work, friends, family and fun. i shall update again! goodbye :)

darkness


just imagine spending your life in total darkness. everyday is like night time to you. you can only use your hearing, touch and your voice to actually find your way. and that actually happened to me moments ago whereby i spent a few mins in darkness and it scared the shit outta me cause it was sooooo eerie! i bet even your grandma would jump and scream. damn the lift construction which disrupted the electricity for my block TWICE. and for both times, my brother and me were practically screaming out ass off ,running towards each other (cause apparently he was in the kitchen making toast while i was in the room), hugging, bumping into things around the living room and falling on the sofa. i swear at that moment i nearly wanted to cry. its just so dark and we thought you-know-what is in the house. so i dial to my sis, half-crying and asking for HELP. and apparently she was in her class and so she told me she'll rush home asap. i was totally disheartened cause it means we gotta stay in that house for an hour before she's home. she actually suggested my brother and me to go out of th house and wait for her downstairs. and that was the first time i understand and experience what you call wobbly legs. so i dial to my mom who's still overseas and once again so kan chiong-ly speaking and at that point of time i seriously wish my mom was with us and not in c-h-i-n-a ): . then she suggested for my uncle who's a technician to come over, like seriously i thought she was kidding. but she actually call me back and told me my uncle will be coming in later. so we sat still in the living room sofa, holding on as tight as ever together and that moment made me feel so bad cause i actually yell to my brother earlier in the day. so in order to chase away the silence, i turned on the volume of the tvee to the maximum and i was still thinking there was you-know-what luhs. tried to pray along with my brother. totally retarded. so around 930, my sis finally came to our rescue and i actually felt so much better that she's home. and she explained to us, th kuku asses, that the life construction disrupted the elcetricity. called up and uncle and told him not to come in anymore. and called bck mom to let her know everything's fine. everything's back to normal and my brother and me were actually laughing so hard about our sillyness just now. and i can't believe he actually landed his whole weight on me just now and you know he isn't as light as you think he is.




ihateblackouts!

uncertainty

k, im feeling so stressed up now. in less than 24hrs, im going to take my MPO paper. uncertainty just fill so much of me now. wonder whether i'll be able to just pass, do average or do well. much less to say the worst, fail. i guess im taking it too heavily. those wild thoughts shouldn't be there instead i should learn to chill. 3hrs of scribbling later on. and goodluck to each and every of the happy pills (:

today seems like a healthy and productive day. scrubbed and cleaned my house. well, not really scrubbed but vaccumed, mopped, wipe and clean the dishes away. i feel so housewife now. i had been someone good, asking my brother to actually clean up 1/2 the room cause its filled with his useless things and taking wayy too much space. so you can imagine me sharing the room with him and 3/4 of it is filled with his things while im only left with th pathetic 1/4 with so constrained spacing. dinner with daddy later on. i feel so sleepy now. ohh

goodbye!

colourful hearts (:

im so tired, so tired so tired! i wanna sleep so much badly. not only that i wanna go shopping ): exams exams exams. just 3papers, im going to get it over and done with! i don't have much to say now. just feel so tired when i woke up this morning for mugging. 3hrs over at coffee bean. had a bad craving for potato salad today but didn't get to eat it in the end ): i love starbucks potato salad th most! yummy :D dinner with fatty. its been 3days since we're eating packed food for dinner and lunch. getting sick of it and im starting to miss mummy's cooking so much.

i've got so much left to say.

brought fatty out to science centre today. been really long since i went there, th last was when im in primary school? oh wells, i had a tad bit of fun there. some of th things are really cool. library then dinner then home. today finally rained! awesome weather to actually sleep in. 2 more days to exams :/ damn exams, if not i'll be at attica now ): can't wait for friday to come, exams will end by then! meet ups with girlfriends, drinking sessions, working and everything will come in. cool but gonna be so tired.

ohoh i wanted to blog bout this. i bet many would know of the earthquake that hit szechuan recently? so like everywhere is hav ing fund-rising programmes, even on tvee. happened to chance upon this real life story of this mother and her 3-4months old baby. when she was found by those rescuers, she was alr dead and lying in a awkward position. so after they moved those rubbles away, they actually flipped her away and saw that in her arms, she was holding her 3-4months old son! and the son was actually still wrapped in a towel, sleeping soundly. and after they carried the baby out, they actually found this phone on him, and on it reads a text message that says : dearest, if you're alive, remember i love you , by his mom! i bet that moment was seriously so touching, tears just welled up my eyes.


at that moment i wanna tell everyone that i love, i love you (:

mugging of maths, wheelock coffee bean, street bands, pure caramel, lover, ajisen for dinner, taka and home. everywhere is having SALES yet nothing caught my eye yet. arrrr. another day nearer to exams. im 60% prepared yet i still fear. eating chocolate before maths paper helps in stimulation of the brain. cool. can't wait for exams to end. drinking session with happy pills! :) midnight mugging, yanyan, bubblegum, anyone? :]






its been so long, still i miss your presence.

Spent 3/4 of my day sleeping and watching shows. my body clock is totally inverted now. i sleep in the wee hours of morning and i wake up around noon close to evening. exams are just 3 days away. yes, 3 freaking days and not say a month. and just 3 papers, im gonna get it done and over with. i believe hard work do pay off in the very end. I can't wait for GSS to come though! everything's gonna be so cheap cheap and more cheap! seriously can't wait to lay my fingers on those beautiful clothes, accessories, bags, shoes and everything! :D dad's away, mum's gonna be away overseas tmr and sis is away too in taiwan! ): the sudden urge to go for holiday somewhere away from this tiny red dot. can't imagine im gonna spend exactly 8days while mum's away with fatfat and dad. i'll miss you, mum. though its just 8days but i guess im too used to having you around for me for everything. but i've got a nice fatfat who's gonna da bao me lunch tmr and he's none other than my fatty brother. can't wait for exams to end, i have so many things i wanna do and also not forgetting shopping!



off for the tvee! :D

its 309am and im going bed now!
4hrs of mugging maths is a killer.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KOH WEI [:


happywild18
may everyday be filled with happiness for you (:

CA1

school was good. everything seems good today. we talked and cleared the awkwardness :) anywho i checked out my ca1 results and surprisingly i got an A+ for Maths :)) I was really glad cause Maths has never been my strong sub. thus im gonna work even harder for exams cause this is what i would love to see on the June 13th. time to get back to my books! :D



goodbye!

busy


i've been pretty busy recently. exams, friends and some personal stuffs. so little time and so many things to do. thus this left me no time to even ponder over unneccessary matter. but my appetitie dropped majorly. im now only having one meal per day. i dont know whats wrong with my body. i used to have like 3meals per day and snack alot, now i dont. anywoo i've been subway-ing for th past 2days, frequent far east trips and so much nonsense. dark eye rings are getting bad and i've been using concealer when i go out nowadays. all thanks to those midnight oil i've been burning for exams. vesak tmr which means no school and happy me :) most probably to be out studying and meeting loved ones for dinner. i hope th plan goes something like that. ohh burning midnight oil tonight, anyone?




its time to get my camera out :)

disputes


i need temper management so badly and im serious. it has been so long since i was this angry. and i guess not one of them have seen me this side of me before. but one thing i gotta say is im sorry t shocked you guys. but this is the side of me that you guys have seen it and now your did. i guess when im really angry, no one bothers and they actually let me cool down myself. the bus ride home from school today was a long one? thoughts just ran through my mind, many in fact. upon looking back it was something small yet the tension is high now. i guess lets all cool before we actually speak it out again. i dont wan anymore unhappy school days cause i know myself, for then i will hate school. i fear lonely and in fact i never like being alone thats why im always surrounded with friends. nevertheless they always seem to replace the emptiness i feel inside. i may have been harsh with words but i never meant it. i guess no one would really have a right mind when they're angry. instead sometimes i wish to be like some, being neutral and knowing so lil. it does you no good to know so much. i never wan to flare up so badly. but i just did. what's done is done and now lets all cool, i guess thats the best.




oh well enough of emo nemo! i met twinny todayyyyyy ((: he's gotten himself a really vok hair colour, sliver. but apparently it looks more of a white-ish blonde. everything was good today. things went smoothly and nothing bad happened. i love today and its nice seeing everything so wonderful. we had so much fun today. even i was a lil tired from school and bad things happened but after seeing them, the sad side of me went away. i guess i was never really happy like today after so long. ((:

old


my stomach hasn't been well ever since i woke up in the morning for school till now ): i just feel so nasueous and other than 2 small puffs i had during break, i had nothing else at all, yes nothing. and yet i still feel that my stomach is weird. sigh, i hope it gets better anytime soon. today is like the worst walk i had to school. the rain and wind make it so hard for me to balance my file and umbrella and also making sure that i don't get wet. and whats more i got splashed by a car which zoomed past me and it wet my shorts )): so i was really glad when i actually made it t school. blackout again during class. so our maths lecturer actually spent awhile telling us his life stories. heh. unpleasant events happened today and i dont wanna mention any tad bit bout it. happy thing that keeps me going is twinny and all is coming bck! :D after school went mugging as well and then headed for home cause i just felt terrible. i hope i'll be fine sooon (:





sometimes i would rather the old

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAMS! (;



school was good. time passes rather fast for today. celebrated clams birthday in school. bought him a super yummy cake and a card from happy pills. we skipped english class today after break. took some photos but sad t say its nt with me yet. bestfriend hasn't send any of us. so i'll post it up soon! :D after school was to Mac t mug! amos and me did maths str8 for 3hrs with a lil break here and there. its a nice place to study and i concentrate best without falling asleep. heh. going there tmr after school again cause exams are coming in 2weeks time? so tired so tired. and one thing being happy bout it TWINNY IS FINALLY COMING BACK FRM THAILAND TMR! :) even though i won't be able to see him cause i'll be schooling the next day but still im happy! i'll update soon ;)



youmademesodisapointed.

mummy's day ;)

i know i was supposed t post this ytd but i was too tired so here it goes
HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY! i love you (:
everyday's gonna be mummy's day and not just yesterday.
from the left: 2nd sis, mum, me and fatty
from the left: big sis, mum, me and fatty
So that all about yesterday. O' ya we went shopping after lunch at some chinese restaurant and the food sucks, really. mummy bought us a new camera ((: then we headed down city hall and bugis for some retail therapy and im glad everyone's gotten something at the end of the trip, even my fatty brother. and also im really glad that mummy was happy that day.

today! was spent with hy brother. he got back from tw like 3-4days ago? and he is really nice t get me the keychain and the meiji chocolate MIRROR! (; we went for movie Harold & Kumar. its a damn hilarious show and i guess you guys should catch it when your are feeling kinda sucky? it makes you laugh so badly. and i suddenly realise it was my first M18 movie. hah. had Gelare waffle today. got us both damn filling before th movie. we spent time there eating and catching up. so after the movie was home cause we were both too tired to go anywhere.
geeky him ;)



i miss twinny, roy, delong and brian so much! bet they're enjoying themselves so much in thailand right now. i hope wednesday faster comes and they're back! and probably i might get t see them on thur? hee. school was good. nothing much bout it. but sometimes i dont dare to give my full trust a not so close friend jus like that. i dont know why either maybe because im someone who fears disappointments. and even little actions shows it all. i'll update again soon [:

Fuckshits
Someone please tell me why must all these happen at the same time?
Everything seems so screwed now, fcuk.

iwannabeyourprincess (:

see you when i see you ((:

My first time going to the airport as early as 4am in the morning! I didn't catch a wink at all and i left my house at 3am. Super freaky to be out in the VERY early morning and there were hardly any cars and not to mention people. I got freaked out by some homeless malay guys who sat under my block being so annoying. Got on the cab and felt much more relieved. Check in with their luggages and then to T3. Snap some photos here and there. And then it was time for time to go in sooooo hugs, kisses and everything (: im really going to miss them! We all headed home by train and I was so deep in my sleep that my head kept on leaning to people's shoulder and i swear it was embarrassing. School nearly killed me then town. Thanks to Amos for driving me there and fetching me home once again (: Met loverrrrr after what like seems to be ages! :D Spins to study maths and then SHOPPING! It was super crowded, never shop on a weekend i swear. Dinner at CJ and then far east before home (: Im so worn out now. Mom's day dinner tmr (:

rainbows are love(:


i would love to sit down in th balcony with a lovely cup of coffee in my hand and enjoy the rainbow. today's TGIF and i didn't plan to spend the night out cause im too tired. the moment i reached home, been stuck with my laptop till now watching shows :/ gonna hit the sheets early tonight and send twinny and all tmr morning off. so i guess tmr's gonna be a long day for me?

BALLOONS (:



School was good today. gave 101% attention for MPO. anywoo lunch with happy pills. then Roy called and met up with twinny and him. cabbed down to Golden Mile aka Little thailand. I swear I've never been to there before and it was my first today. Flooded with many thai restuarants, food, thai and everything you can think of bout thailand. The building is seriously damn old that anyone could ever think of. Headed down to bugis and then we went around looking for V3 movie cafe but it turned out to be V8! -.- Dined there and aftermath went down to Tantric. Spent the remaining evening playing Bluff and im a lousy liar ): Twinny and i left as early as six plus for home cause he isn't all well from his illness yet. I think i sleep well on the bus and i dont feel as tired when i get home, weird me. O'ya Hy is back from Taiwan and im meeting him on Monday for a movie and catching up (: TGIF tmr and im gonna spend my friday night home with my fatty brother cause there's sch the very next day. I need to wake up as early as 2am on saturday morning t meet twinny and all to send them off at the airport then afterwhich I will head t sch ): I'll misss them all so much and I can't wait for them to be bck, seriously (:

Nothing beats lying down along with your bestest laughing at silly things (:

twinny, when the skies are grey, you know im here with you [:

anywooo school was fine today. i had an early lunch with dear babe, angie. so the rest of the happy pills came over to find me after they did their lunch. madness tension going on inside the studyroom, everyone was mugging so hard t finish off Ca2. haha. so i left around 230 to go over to meet lesbian to go over twinny's. R's place and then back to fetch twinny. seriously felt the heartpain when i saw his finger and hands )': i miss him still even though i just saw him a few moments ago. im pondering bout getting a pair of gladiators. but because i might be lazy to strap them on and off my feet. hee. i finally get to go and get my stuffs tmr in town! ((: and i hope twinny is meeting me ;)

the thorn in my heart was mentioned, outta sudden my heart felt damn heavy once again

Have been coughing non stop the whole day, bad bad dry cough im having now. The day in school was rather fine. Mugged maths after school together with happy pills. Left for home. Saw someone on the bus and catch up quite a tad bit. English tmr and mugging after school. Received a phone call jus now. Some terrible things happened and i hope twinny is fine. im really worried about him. moreover now that he doesnt have a phone and i can't get to contact him much. i seriously misss so madly and definetely wanna see him before he goes Thailand this coming sat. Times like today makes me worry so much that I could go mad any moment. He must be feeling rather terrible and I dont wan him to be alone. instead I wanna see him ):

8 different scopes of ice cream today: cookies&cream, choco, strawberry, raspeberry, limesorbet, mango, caramel & mint. i swear it'll be weeks again before i touch ice cream. expo for bookfair, madness place i swear. but the prices were woohoo dirt cheap. shokudo for dinner. i need money badly ): i've got so much things i wanne get. shades, jacket, longchamp bag, bag, shoes, tops etc etc. there's school tmr. so tired so tired. i miss certain things and people. im in need of retail therapy. exam timetable's out. 3more weeks left t work on and i want no regrets.





walking away just means i've lost
its hard t say what might happen
but i know thats not my best.

so i realise nowadays i spend most of my weekends at home. so worn out by school and assignments to be due next week. hardly get the chance to actually go and meet up with my lovelys for a nice chill out session together. exams are just 3weeks away. worries keep flooding my mind. and i fear i can't go on to sem 2 but i dont wanna retain. moreover i dont wish to see any disappointed faces. plans have been made. june will be filled with work and friends. seriously can't wait to be back to work cause i miss 'em all effing much. oh ya, not forgetting happy pills chalet, prays that daddy actually allow me *cross fingers. one more thing, ben will then be back (:can't wait for this seriously! so many things coming up and im nt prepared. i've yet to face them all and i doubt i'll be able to make it to Attica on the 25th cause exams will be 3days away from then. so today is a saturday again and im staying in, but im cool like that. i feel so tired still after sleeping so much in the noon.went out t stock up goodies just now. mugging till 3am later tonight, its a must. i hope there's actually stuffs to keep me awake doing maths maths and more maths. and damn the connection, sucks totally.

I realise thursdays isn't a good day for meet ups. Last thursday when i was supposed to meet twinny smth cropped up and the recent thursday that I just met him, he was in a rather foul mood cos he lost his phone. See, get what i meant? Tsk. No more meet ups on thurdays i swear. So anywho Maths Ca2 is being such killer to everyone. Almost, everyone is struggling with it and not to mention, yours truly here as well. Im so tired and I can seriously fall asleep anytime while blogging. Have been rather slack nowadays in lessons, OH NO WHAT AM I DOING?! I must seriously spend some quality time with my books this weekend. Catch up with everything that has been taught and also getting my Maths done. I promise nt t skip lectures halfway next week anymore cause exams are just at the end of this month. 10th is coming and twinny and all will be in thailand )': looks like I must meet him soon before he flies off to thailand for holiday. I need to go study now. (:

Time flies, really. In a wink of an eye, 2 of my boys are enlisting into NS this coming Sept. I'll really miss them. I wish there were 48hrs a day instead of 24 so we can spend more time together? Lovely twinny cooked pasta for lunch today when i crashed his place in the early noon. yummy :) savoured every bit of it right into my stomach. And this poor fellow here lost his phone. Seriously curse and swear the fucker to never have a good life. We headed to town to meet gf over at Taka. We spent some time outside bitching away while the 2 lovebirds were in LV and we couldn't take it anymore and went inside to find them. Bought my subway cookies at Cine and i left to meet Amos and Dan to get my notes and then home sweet home (: its already 12:14am and i better get to sleep now cause apparently there's school tmr and its boring English class ): Moreover Angie wont be coming which adds to the boredom )):






I wanna haf a nice lil puppy to keep my fears away