Feeling down

I just had to post what I'm feeling inside out. Probably I might feel better aft doing so. Everyone ard me all thinks I will be able to make it through th 2yrs rd I've chosen. I used to think that IF im more disciplined in terms of sch I will be able to do it. But it doesn't seem like it. Instead I need to be even more hardworking than everyone else, more disciplined w myself than what I thought I should have been. It was definitely a fact that I didn't managed to do any of th above that is mentioned. And now as my last lap is nearing,Ice doubts bout myself. Th thought of "mayb I'm not cut out for UOL" just came into my mind. I should have jus not been impulsive enough to rush thru my decision on my choice of uni. But th truth now is what's th fucking point of me receding into it now when I'm at this stage? All these shld be jus complaints and unneccessary thoughts which MUST be thrown aside. Instead I shouldn't give up now and give my best shot to it before I call quits. No one accepts things like "I've did my best". Sad t say not even my parents, instead they will probably think "why is it that you don study hard when we pay for yr studies?" contridicting to whatever I've mentioned earlier on isn't it. Tell me how I shld be feeling now. I had a breakdown jus nw,needed to vent it out. I'm jus afraid. Yet no one understands my fear.

Mugging days sucks badly

I shall do an update on my space here since I've some time off my books tdy :) Everyday of this week is like mundane; I wake up, my mom packs lunch for me, finish off lunch, catch some tv time, time for my books, dinner time, some tv time again, shower and back to books!! Omg, tell me is this life?! Why does exams period is uni seems so different in dms days? Sometimes I can mug to an extend that I fear that I might end up failing everything(CHOYY) and end up crying like its the end of th world. But then sometimes I get pretty confident bout my papers. Urgh,very irritated with this caught up feeling of being no where.


Anyway I've many plans and things on mind about what I wanna do durin my 3mths long holidayys which is coming in another 2weeks aft the hell time of life.

-Scrapbooking class
-Start to DIY my board(this board I intend to use it for 21st next yr)
-GO check out every place frm Sentosa to Pasir Ris chalet for a next 21st next yr
-Mad shopping on my cosmetics and skincare
-Eat up all of bin's money. I srsly need very good food aft exams
-Retail therapy needed!!
-Wanna find a full time office job
-Then I can buy my first Prada in my 20yrs of life
-Drive more and park more so my dad can let me on the rd by myself!
-Meet up with friends whom I've not seen for the longest time!!
-HIGHLIGHT HAIRRR
-Go clubbing with monster&co

Sad thing is, wont be able to have a getaway with bin in June as he might be starting his new job soon. So we got to save up the kachings for year end. Maybe some mega shopping madness in BKK. I think w/o my parents/sisters with me, I can buy 20pairs of shoes, endless clothes and accessories! Hahahaha. I was restricted when I went bkk with them last december. My sisters and mom nagged me on my shoes :/


And another reason why I've time here is because my stupid sister who jus came hm and was gg to shower(same as me) so we scissors paper stone and the loser shower last. But apparently she lost and insist on showering first so I ended up sitting in front of my laptop for awhile. Asshole sister. HAHAHA

KTHXBYE! :>

Happy advance birthday Candy!

Totally didnt have a wink the night before. Insomia came knocking on my door :/ Got out of bed as early as 9am. Had breakie and started mugging. Life sucks when its exams period. And u know you've got to make it thru cause you wouldn't wanna spend the 1k to repeat. Sucks big time.

Anyw met up with bin in the late noon to hit Vivo to meet the rest aft their Sentosa trip. We were early and they were late so we ended up resting our sleepy souls at Pacific Coffee Company. Cool breeze, light shower, coffee with just you and me spells perfect :)


Caramel Latte was a tad bit too sweet for me. Still prefer Starbuck's :)


Love this shot taken by love :)
We wanted to dine in at one of the steamboat places in Vivo but the price was abit too over and we left Vivo to the exact same place where Candy had her birthday dinner last year! Parkroyal Hotel over @ Kitchener Rd which is at Little India. Nearly died when we were there, all BLACK :/ Scary. Ming and G sis got her a strawberry shortcake and we had it as a surprise for her :)

The food was good, company was there and non stop laughters but a pity mummy Sandy wasnt there tdy cause she was sick :( Hope lil Caleb and her is doing alright now :]
Happy birthday jiemei!


With bloated tummies, we headed to the restroom aft dinner. Snap a few shots before heading outta restroom. Thats what girls are best at ;)

Self timer shot! It looks nice :]

Gonna start to give all outings/shoppings/work/online/fb a big miss now. 2weeks later I will be back. I need to fully concentrate to fight the battle frm 5th May till th 17th. Wooh.

Hopefully my warm milk is gonna help me to get some sleep tonight. If not lagi best. KTHXBYE! :D

Middle of th night

This is reaaly bad. My insomia Is getting worse each night. It's 3.31am now and I'm wide awake, to top it off,I'm having a terrible sighness. How good can it still get? Seriously need to everything right soon. It's tiring to use thick concealer to cover my dark eye rings. God,when will th sneezing stop? :(

Happy birthday hun!

Yesterday was bin's birthday :] In the morning, he went out for his interview before meeting me around 1plus in the noon. After we met up, we headed for a light lunch ard Vivo and settled down at Toast Box for mee siam. But it was a huge disappointment :< the mee siam tasted horrible and I got sick aft a few mouths. Didn't managed to finish 3/4 of the food.

After lunch, we shopped around Vivo and I finally found white denim skirts in Zara! To add on, I bought a ribbon blue&white polka dot tank to match it:D Just in Zara, I spent $70 for 2items (\M/)

Had a sudden craving for ice-cream so we hit off to B&J. The whole B&J was empty except for us and the staff there. So we almost had the whole place to ourselves! Had chunky monkey w choco mint :DD


I kinda love this photo :D








Ok, bin was sucha spoiler to my surprise. He ended up accidentally peeking at it and I had no choice so I decided to give him when we were having ice-creams :)

HAPPEH LOOK :DD

Reading th msg I wrote :D
Self DIY by yours truly :]
On top of that, I got him the swatch watch he eyed on some time ago. And it is also our 2nd couple watch :]]



Decided to have an early dinner so we could head down town early to M1 at Paragon to check out his iPhone deals there. I love ShinKushiya! :DD So I brought him there for dinner. The jap food there is seriously alot nicer than sakae/sushi tei! Plus all their sushi is made on the spot and served to us. So you won't be having sushi that has been placed there for long. And all the food there is VERY fresh :]
WO SHI JING CHA!
I'm feeling hungry aft seeing those pictures again :/



The aftermath of being hungry :x

:]


Think Shinkushiya is currently my top fav jap food followed by Sushi tei. I have yet to try out "Shabu Shabu" recommended by alot of ppl.


So after dinner, we spotted M1 shop in Vivo outta no where. So we decided to go in and have a look. But the service of the staff was very bad and she seemed so cocky, so we left the place w/o even saying thank you. Can't stand bad service. Trained down town and we walked around Ion. Wanted to another top but gave it a miss in the end, cause I've spent alot this month.

I started to feel very nauseous while shopping. And I knew it was probably indigestion frm the meal earlier on because I ate my last sushi in a rush and I didnt managed to chew the food properly before swallowing so in a way I swallowed the whole damn thing in a piece! It was really a terrible feeling, my chest started to cramp so badly . I tried to gulp down water but it doesnt work much. In the end, the cramp got really bad and I felt that the juice is gonna be out so I rushed off to the toilet. Felt better aftermath and bin brought me to have a hot drink. I scare th witts outta him.

Headed home around 9pm and we both were so tired that we slept the whole train journey home.

Glad that bin had a memorable birthday this yr:>

Love is all around :]

Backtrack to ytd a little.

Ytd was a super long and tiring day for me. Headed out in the early noon ard 1pm to Plaza Sing to find tiffy for brunch. After that headed to MWL and settled down to start doing bin's present. Done w 3/4 of the present around 5plus before heading down to town. Popped by to find G sis at Ion and when I went out of Ion, it was raining SUPER heavily! Gosh and I needed to be at Cineleisure at 7pm. In the end, meet up w zombie, swing and noel to head to Cineleisure tgt :)


Met up with the rest and we headed up to kbox! :) Sang for a good 3hrs that night w lovely company around and mad camwhoring!



Do well in MBS, I've faith in you :)

Think we look nice tgt in this pic plus thanks to keddy's gr8 photography skills.

Twinnies :)








Love my hair in this photo cause of the colour :)